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Walking home in the dark
A light mist starts accumulating on my hair
With the hope and promise of someday
Somehow becoming something great
Someone important
Using every bit of potential
To get out of the darkness
And step up into the warm light.
It made so much sense then,
But the more I get
The more I regret
Take for granted
I understand it
All too well
I've been here before
I've felt the pain
Of self defeat
I destroy everything
There's nothing I keep
Outside the rain is falling
Heavier than ever
I've managed to survive
The most disastrous weather
My mind can't take it
And my heart is too weak
I do this to myself
So I dare not speak.
I'm home now
Wrapped in my safety
I'm alone now
Please don't try to wake me.
I'll do this on my own,
I'll show the world
This life is just an act
I'll make it big someday
And won't be coming back.
(Nothing serious, just writing down whatever came to mind... stream of consciousness writing... freedom of expression... thoughts, whims, fears, the stuff I'm never comfortable with saying aloud.. etc etc.)
I need to stop taking stuff for granted... that's my friggin problem. I'm too damn ignorant and ungrateful for everything I own and everything I've earned and worked hard for.
Maybe the destructive cycle has ended... maybe if I believe that it has indeed ended, it will in fact be over. It's really up to me with the miniscule decisions I make on a daily basis. Even the most miniscule of decisions, can and usually will have the largest and most profound and long-lasting impact on the rest of my life. I need to start truly getting in touch with the action-reaction / action-consequence theory. I will move forward.
A light mist starts accumulating on my hair
With the hope and promise of someday
Somehow becoming something great
Someone important
Using every bit of potential
To get out of the darkness
And step up into the warm light.
It made so much sense then,
But the more I get
The more I regret
Take for granted
I understand it
All too well
I've been here before
I've felt the pain
Of self defeat
I destroy everything
There's nothing I keep
Outside the rain is falling
Heavier than ever
I've managed to survive
The most disastrous weather
My mind can't take it
And my heart is too weak
I do this to myself
So I dare not speak.
I'm home now
Wrapped in my safety
I'm alone now
Please don't try to wake me.
I'll do this on my own,
I'll show the world
This life is just an act
I'll make it big someday
And won't be coming back.
(Nothing serious, just writing down whatever came to mind... stream of consciousness writing... freedom of expression... thoughts, whims, fears, the stuff I'm never comfortable with saying aloud.. etc etc.)
I need to stop taking stuff for granted... that's my friggin problem. I'm too damn ignorant and ungrateful for everything I own and everything I've earned and worked hard for.
Maybe the destructive cycle has ended... maybe if I believe that it has indeed ended, it will in fact be over. It's really up to me with the miniscule decisions I make on a daily basis. Even the most miniscule of decisions, can and usually will have the largest and most profound and long-lasting impact on the rest of my life. I need to start truly getting in touch with the action-reaction / action-consequence theory. I will move forward.