I was simply overwhelmed with Sam feelings and I was so unused to it. I like Sam, but rarely do I have the instinctual urge to capslock his name without too much prompting.
ME TOO IT WAS AMAZING. I mean, I almost always feel compassion for Sam and have loved his character arcs, but I usually am not overwhelmed in a visceral way with Sam feelings either.
YES YES YES so much to the bit about Dean acting his father, completely. I think as well, that some of his anger is big time about irrational abandonment issues that he's never quite gotten over re: Sam leaving for Stanford. I think intellectually Dean has always gotten it and even admired Sam for it, and he last season was trying to convince Krissy the girl hunter (I hope that was her name) to get out and maybe go to school, but I think emotionally Sam leaving him is something he's never quite finished dealing with, and in this situation he just plain feels abandoned. Which I think is where a lot of the anger comes from. It's totally unfair to Sam, but it's something that's been an undercurrent for Dean for the whole series, this idea that everyone abandons him.
I loved your points about fighting=living to Dean, and so not fighting being something he can't really understand right now. I think he could have understood it last season, when they were both so tired. I think if Sam had wanted out last season Dean would have gone with him, maybe. Oh, show.
I could continue getting overwhelmed with Sam feelings! I enjoyed the experience!
This sounds really, really dumb, but I totally didn't count Dean's fierce abandonment issues when thinking about his characterization in the ep. Though I think at this point, he expects to be abandoned, too. The natural order of things is people leaving him, so he has to fight to keep them with him.
ME TOO IT WAS AMAZING. I mean, I almost always feel compassion for Sam and have loved his character arcs, but I usually am not overwhelmed in a visceral way with Sam feelings either.
YES YES YES so much to the bit about Dean acting his father, completely. I think as well, that some of his anger is big time about irrational abandonment issues that he's never quite gotten over re: Sam leaving for Stanford. I think intellectually Dean has always gotten it and even admired Sam for it, and he last season was trying to convince Krissy the girl hunter (I hope that was her name) to get out and maybe go to school, but I think emotionally Sam leaving him is something he's never quite finished dealing with, and in this situation he just plain feels abandoned. Which I think is where a lot of the anger comes from. It's totally unfair to Sam, but it's something that's been an undercurrent for Dean for the whole series, this idea that everyone abandons him.
I loved your points about fighting=living to Dean, and so not fighting being something he can't really understand right now. I think he could have understood it last season, when they were both so tired. I think if Sam had wanted out last season Dean would have gone with him, maybe. Oh, show.
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This sounds really, really dumb, but I totally didn't count Dean's fierce abandonment issues when thinking about his characterization in the ep. Though I think at this point, he expects to be abandoned, too. The natural order of things is people leaving him, so he has to fight to keep them with him.
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