this is a long entry. im sorry.
now ill just start this saying how tired i am. i really am. i woke up early at arielles house and had some bagels and now after eating some more im tired. i had too many starburst today. im really sorry for the lack of updates. school has been dragging me down. school always does. but it really sucks, i cant even remember the last time i made a real picture update. i miss livejournal. it made me happy. i love everyones comments and everyones good lives. we all have good lives. even when we totally do not appreciate.
i know sometimes i dont. but anyways.
whats been going on with me lately? well some good times. some good friends. meeting new people. starting to adjust to high school finally after 3 quarters. starting to understand the consequences to my actions. starting to love my body. starting to want to show it off again. starting to want to you know with a boy.
lemme stop talking now.
ive been on myspace too much lately so if you wanna see me there or if you have a myspace account add me. im really nice, and i love everyone on lj. even though i forgot about a lot of people. sorry. :(.
i found out today how to get on the roof of my house. after 6 years ive never been on the roof of my house... much less any roof of a house. it was so nice. the breeze and the hot black tiles or whatever they are called. and all my sisters friends. it was nice. im thinking of going there more often and bringing people special. cause it is a special place.
wow i can barely look straight. i need to stop revealing so many secrets to everyone. everyone basically knows me by now. well not everyone but a lot of people. i dont trust a lot of people. that doesnt add up. i really wish people would deal with their own lives. my actions are my actions. they might be stupid and provacotive and not to your likings. so what. boys. they're called them for a reason. i do what i please with them. deal with it.
and i also hate bitching with people. i hate shit with people. however lately ive gotten so into it. i really need to stop. "fuck you" ; "shut the fuck up" ; "you're bullshit." remind me to take that out of my vocabulary. seriously, if i can not curse for just one day please pay me 50 bucks. please.
it will probably never happen but whatever.
i wonder if im growing up the right way. i always do. if in 10 years or so or till whenever i get married ill look back on these times and think very highly of them. i really hope i do. i like who i am. i used to be so boxed. so 2d. im everything now. i like it. im not being concieted. im just thinking real hard at 12:15 am.
rum. rum rum rum. remind me to stop taking sips every day or so. remind me to stop reaching for that stash behind my cups. it burns my throat. (edit: please remind me to stop drinking it period. especially on my roof..)
i watched sideways today. what a good movie. i love sex scenes in movies. they are really scandelous. i dont find enjoyment or anything in them they are just scandelous.
i also watched spongebob. which is a very funny movie to watch right now as far as im concerned. or as far as my concerns are going right now. which they are going pretty far becasue im basically telling everyone everything. not really though. im hiding some stuff.
but isnt this what people want?
... oh god and all i wanted to do was update.
im adding this entry to memories.
peace out.
i know sometimes i dont. but anyways.
whats been going on with me lately? well some good times. some good friends. meeting new people. starting to adjust to high school finally after 3 quarters. starting to understand the consequences to my actions. starting to love my body. starting to want to show it off again. starting to want to you know with a boy.
lemme stop talking now.
ive been on myspace too much lately so if you wanna see me there or if you have a myspace account add me. im really nice, and i love everyone on lj. even though i forgot about a lot of people. sorry. :(.
i found out today how to get on the roof of my house. after 6 years ive never been on the roof of my house... much less any roof of a house. it was so nice. the breeze and the hot black tiles or whatever they are called. and all my sisters friends. it was nice. im thinking of going there more often and bringing people special. cause it is a special place.
wow i can barely look straight. i need to stop revealing so many secrets to everyone. everyone basically knows me by now. well not everyone but a lot of people. i dont trust a lot of people. that doesnt add up. i really wish people would deal with their own lives. my actions are my actions. they might be stupid and provacotive and not to your likings. so what. boys. they're called them for a reason. i do what i please with them. deal with it.
and i also hate bitching with people. i hate shit with people. however lately ive gotten so into it. i really need to stop. "fuck you" ; "shut the fuck up" ; "you're bullshit." remind me to take that out of my vocabulary. seriously, if i can not curse for just one day please pay me 50 bucks. please.
it will probably never happen but whatever.
i wonder if im growing up the right way. i always do. if in 10 years or so or till whenever i get married ill look back on these times and think very highly of them. i really hope i do. i like who i am. i used to be so boxed. so 2d. im everything now. i like it. im not being concieted. im just thinking real hard at 12:15 am.
rum. rum rum rum. remind me to stop taking sips every day or so. remind me to stop reaching for that stash behind my cups. it burns my throat. (edit: please remind me to stop drinking it period. especially on my roof..)
i watched sideways today. what a good movie. i love sex scenes in movies. they are really scandelous. i dont find enjoyment or anything in them they are just scandelous.
i also watched spongebob. which is a very funny movie to watch right now as far as im concerned. or as far as my concerns are going right now. which they are going pretty far becasue im basically telling everyone everything. not really though. im hiding some stuff.
but isnt this what people want?
... oh god and all i wanted to do was update.
im adding this entry to memories.
peace out.