You get what everyone else gets; You get a lifetime!
First message: NEW LIVEJOURNAL ACCOUNT NEEDED
If you have a spare account lying about to hand out, please please please may I have it. I'm planning on keeping this, but I want another to voice more private matters on and to keep secret to a select group of -friends- I can trust and who still care about me.
Second message: I'm beginning to tire more and more of the spiteful nature of life on the alternative scene. Everyone has their problems and we all watn someone to take them out on. Often this can be our own friends. It's a sad and hateful thing to do and I feel at times I've been guilty. I'm no angel, but I've been given a few outside opinions from people I hold in extremely high esteem. Many call me loud. Annoying springs up often. Blissfully ignorant is probably another most would agree with once suggested. I am, but if you don't like that, then I can't force you to. I just wish some people could also recognise their own faults a little more before dictating the faults in others.
I have two choices infront of me, and one is a last ditch attempt to restart my life:
1) Cut all contact with all my 'friends' in Edinburgh and start completely fresh. Forget the alternative scene and concentrate on getting a new job, and going out with the few people who have come to my aid in my darkest hours. Continue living in Edinburgh and continue finding the right job while limiting my contact with the people I really should not bother with.
2) Leave Edinburgh completely. Forget everyone and find a new life away from everyone. Find a job and go for it wherever it may be.
I just spent the weekend down in Stamford with my brother and family down there. Despite the arguements with my sister, I have had a great time away from here. My brother and his friends are better than most people up here. They don't take their problems out on those around them, but help eachother with them. I've been told I should just leave here and I've been suggested York where I can see my brother more often and get away from all this negativity. It would hurt more in the short-term, but it would probably help in the long-term.
I'm sick of being the target. I'm tired of being the pincussion everyone likes to drive their needles into. I've let myself become the punchbag and now I'm goint to fix it. One hurtful jibe, one more bitter word, and you can consider yourself permanently erased from my good books.
If you have a spare account lying about to hand out, please please please may I have it. I'm planning on keeping this, but I want another to voice more private matters on and to keep secret to a select group of -friends- I can trust and who still care about me.
Second message: I'm beginning to tire more and more of the spiteful nature of life on the alternative scene. Everyone has their problems and we all watn someone to take them out on. Often this can be our own friends. It's a sad and hateful thing to do and I feel at times I've been guilty. I'm no angel, but I've been given a few outside opinions from people I hold in extremely high esteem. Many call me loud. Annoying springs up often. Blissfully ignorant is probably another most would agree with once suggested. I am, but if you don't like that, then I can't force you to. I just wish some people could also recognise their own faults a little more before dictating the faults in others.
I have two choices infront of me, and one is a last ditch attempt to restart my life:
1) Cut all contact with all my 'friends' in Edinburgh and start completely fresh. Forget the alternative scene and concentrate on getting a new job, and going out with the few people who have come to my aid in my darkest hours. Continue living in Edinburgh and continue finding the right job while limiting my contact with the people I really should not bother with.
2) Leave Edinburgh completely. Forget everyone and find a new life away from everyone. Find a job and go for it wherever it may be.
I just spent the weekend down in Stamford with my brother and family down there. Despite the arguements with my sister, I have had a great time away from here. My brother and his friends are better than most people up here. They don't take their problems out on those around them, but help eachother with them. I've been told I should just leave here and I've been suggested York where I can see my brother more often and get away from all this negativity. It would hurt more in the short-term, but it would probably help in the long-term.
I'm sick of being the target. I'm tired of being the pincussion everyone likes to drive their needles into. I've let myself become the punchbag and now I'm goint to fix it. One hurtful jibe, one more bitter word, and you can consider yourself permanently erased from my good books.