Strange......
You know, I have an incrediblely strange life, but who doesn't. This past summer has went by quickly and I have spent countless nights not sleeping. But that is the strange thing. I try not to stay up to late because I'm afraid of those epiphanies that occur at that time. Things like.... Well I really don't want to discuss them with the world, but you know things. Things that make me want to scream and others that make me want to not exist, and others that make my eyes bulge from all the crying that occurs (yes people there is crying, but it is a one person deal no one else knows). But anyway, I think it just now occurred to me that all of this, all of us as friends really don't have that long. I mean, we really don't have that long together. School in itself will pull most of us in our separate ways. And then with that a few of us are not even going to the same school as the rest of you. In the long run we thought that the end of 8th grade was the start of our new lives, well in a way yes. But the real start was a long time ago when we first met. We made a decision to become friends knowing that these days would come. And making the decision to deal with it when it came up. And to an extent, we did. But to most of us. We really did not realize what was happening. That we would all really and truly leave each other. And I'm not talking about the "Oh I'll miss you see you next year" or "We'll talk during summer." I mean we will truly be separated. If you remember I wrote things in your year books. Well as sincere as they were they did not say everything. Because in order for that to happen I would need thousands of pages and a lot of ink. I've never told you all this, but in a way.... You shaped me o be a better person. I mean not like anything cliché I really mean you made me something.... Nothing bad but, something. I'm not sure what that is yet but, very soon I expect to find out. We've said our goodbyes before. But this time.... I think.. no I know I mean it. Goodbye. My friends, my family, my hearts. I love you all more than you could ever expect, but I think that to really grow we need to experience new things, and new people. so I'm asking all of you please forget Andre. Well you know what I mean. Forget this one and look for another one at your new schools. One that... Is as good as me... LOL. Which will be hard to find. LOL. And if you don't I completely understand. I would not want some self righteous, obdient, goodie two shoes walking behind me all the time either. So I guess this is good bye. So good bye. My Friends.......