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I've been having a delema recently. U see until now I had planned on goign up to New Jersey to live with my sister and take care of her baby (which she hasnt given birth to yet). Yet recently these plans messed up and i no longer was going to stay by my sister. Though now where was I going to live? For a few days I was considering staying in Florida, go to skool in the Miami area (even though I reeally wanted to get out of here). But I figured that no matter where I go It's goign to be a new experience because I'll be around different people and at a different skool. But still somehting in the back of my mind told me that If I stayed, I would be selling my self short. I didnt know wut to do . I mean i have someone to help me but its really expensive and wil I like it In Jersey? I mean how many ppl actually like Jersey? So I asked the last person I would ever get advice from to help me with my problem... my sister. So after talking to her I think I will go to Jersey because I have been in Florida for 17 years but its time to try soemthing different, and if I stay here I feel like im waiting till my friends come home from college (I know that doesnt sound right)but I feel like while they are away Ill be here.. So thats it my fate is leading me to Jersey.
I am actually hapy this year is over, to be completly honest I havent been that happy or felt that good about myself fpr awhile. I know this sounds like Im looking for pitty, but Im not. Its like Im seeing myself from the outside and I dontlike wut I see. But I cant stop. Thoughts come into my head, like jelous ones. I dont like who I am now, and I think some ppl can see it. hopefuy the future has a diffrent path for me then the one im going on now.
I am actually hapy this year is over, to be completly honest I havent been that happy or felt that good about myself fpr awhile. I know this sounds like Im looking for pitty, but Im not. Its like Im seeing myself from the outside and I dontlike wut I see. But I cant stop. Thoughts come into my head, like jelous ones. I dont like who I am now, and I think some ppl can see it. hopefuy the future has a diffrent path for me then the one im going on now.