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For a little while I was SUPER inspired. I was pulling sketches out of my head and coming up with neat-o ideas.
Then this week, not so much. I have managed to get myself into a brainfried funk. The kind where all you feel capable of doing is watching tv and eating cheeto's. Or some variation.
I tried starting a few projects, got barely into them and promptly decided that the whole thing was horrible and terrible and so it all got scrapped.
I spent the better part of the last 2 days sleeping. I hadn't meant to, but it was my own fault for crawling back into bed after getting Connor off to school. When I finally did crawl out of bed it was to play video games or watch netflix or some other brain frying activity.
It's not as though I don't have anything I could be doing. I have a project I could (and should!) be working on. I also could be writing more for my graphic novel. (I've actually got some neat ideas for it now, finally.) Or I could be sketching. Just practicing and getting my ideas onto paper. My sketchbook isn't for final projects, it's for ideas and practice. I'm particularly terrible at figure drawing, so I REALLY need to work on that, especially if I'm to be illustrating my own graphic novel. I really need to begin to develop my own sort of style, in whatever medium.
I was talking to one of my bestest friends yesterday and she told me about a good friend of hers who is an artist and recently had a show and how she had made "months worth of rent" by selling 15 paintings. How much would I love to do that? Even just to have a show at all, or to be featured in a gallery. I just don't have any sort of cohesive body of work. Of course I get both inspired and intimidated by other artists work, and the feeling that I'm simply "not good enough, nor ever will be" sets in. And so I just don't bother trying a lot of times.
It is frustrating.
However, last night I DID spend a couple of hours at my drawing table and did a few sketches, so that was good. So long as I spend a couple hours a day sketching or drawing, that is the most important thing. That is how I will get better and more confident.
I'm strongly considering doing life modeling for university art classes. I don't know if they are particular about body shape and size, though typically we always had skinny models. From what I've heard it pays decent enough that I could do it a few times a week and be okay. I've also heard that it is not exactly easy, as you have to hold positions for long periods of time. I'd probably do well to practice sitting still for 30 minutes at a time. Also holding multiple positions for one minute at a time. I think I'm going to seriously look into this, I just need to know where to start.
Tuesday I tested out ToR on Wade's account. I kind of like it. I made a Twi'lek Smuggler. She's kind of a bitch. I managed to get halfway-ish through level 7 in a couple of hours. I'm allowed to play while Wade isn't here, which is most week days. I've decided that I'll give it 6 months. If I have consistently played and managed to get my character(s) to max level or close to, then I will consider purchasing it for myself. I told this to Wade and he said it was a waste of time because I would have put all that effort in and would then have to start over. I pointed out how I tend to be with games, I play for a little while and then lose interest quickly, and then my playing becomes sporadic. It's why it takes me FOREVER to finish a game and why Wade has only ever witnessed me finishing ONE game. He said he'd rather it be a waste of time than a waste of money. I said "duh."
Monday Connor was home from school with a bad asthma attack. He needed his inhaler every 2 hours, then at 5am in the morning his inhaler ran out. THANK GOD we have a 24 hour cvs pharmacy. 6am I called them and ordered a refill and 20 minutes later we had a brand new inhaler. Since he was still wheezing at 7 and 8 Wade insisted we keep him home. I'm pretty sure it's because the house got all smoked up while Traci and I were making dinner Sunday that aggravated it. He's fine now, so that's good.
Then this week, not so much. I have managed to get myself into a brainfried funk. The kind where all you feel capable of doing is watching tv and eating cheeto's. Or some variation.
I tried starting a few projects, got barely into them and promptly decided that the whole thing was horrible and terrible and so it all got scrapped.
I spent the better part of the last 2 days sleeping. I hadn't meant to, but it was my own fault for crawling back into bed after getting Connor off to school. When I finally did crawl out of bed it was to play video games or watch netflix or some other brain frying activity.
It's not as though I don't have anything I could be doing. I have a project I could (and should!) be working on. I also could be writing more for my graphic novel. (I've actually got some neat ideas for it now, finally.) Or I could be sketching. Just practicing and getting my ideas onto paper. My sketchbook isn't for final projects, it's for ideas and practice. I'm particularly terrible at figure drawing, so I REALLY need to work on that, especially if I'm to be illustrating my own graphic novel. I really need to begin to develop my own sort of style, in whatever medium.
I was talking to one of my bestest friends yesterday and she told me about a good friend of hers who is an artist and recently had a show and how she had made "months worth of rent" by selling 15 paintings. How much would I love to do that? Even just to have a show at all, or to be featured in a gallery. I just don't have any sort of cohesive body of work. Of course I get both inspired and intimidated by other artists work, and the feeling that I'm simply "not good enough, nor ever will be" sets in. And so I just don't bother trying a lot of times.
It is frustrating.
However, last night I DID spend a couple of hours at my drawing table and did a few sketches, so that was good. So long as I spend a couple hours a day sketching or drawing, that is the most important thing. That is how I will get better and more confident.
I'm strongly considering doing life modeling for university art classes. I don't know if they are particular about body shape and size, though typically we always had skinny models. From what I've heard it pays decent enough that I could do it a few times a week and be okay. I've also heard that it is not exactly easy, as you have to hold positions for long periods of time. I'd probably do well to practice sitting still for 30 minutes at a time. Also holding multiple positions for one minute at a time. I think I'm going to seriously look into this, I just need to know where to start.
Tuesday I tested out ToR on Wade's account. I kind of like it. I made a Twi'lek Smuggler. She's kind of a bitch. I managed to get halfway-ish through level 7 in a couple of hours. I'm allowed to play while Wade isn't here, which is most week days. I've decided that I'll give it 6 months. If I have consistently played and managed to get my character(s) to max level or close to, then I will consider purchasing it for myself. I told this to Wade and he said it was a waste of time because I would have put all that effort in and would then have to start over. I pointed out how I tend to be with games, I play for a little while and then lose interest quickly, and then my playing becomes sporadic. It's why it takes me FOREVER to finish a game and why Wade has only ever witnessed me finishing ONE game. He said he'd rather it be a waste of time than a waste of money. I said "duh."
Monday Connor was home from school with a bad asthma attack. He needed his inhaler every 2 hours, then at 5am in the morning his inhaler ran out. THANK GOD we have a 24 hour cvs pharmacy. 6am I called them and ordered a refill and 20 minutes later we had a brand new inhaler. Since he was still wheezing at 7 and 8 Wade insisted we keep him home. I'm pretty sure it's because the house got all smoked up while Traci and I were making dinner Sunday that aggravated it. He's fine now, so that's good.