sleepless but happy
i got home almost 2 hours ago from seeing char in philly. i really do love that girl. i cried AGAIN tonight, during Habit this time. but i had a great time with laura and spent WAY too much money on myself for dinner (the place was pretty pricey), but dammit i wanted to enjoy myself. and i did. i'm buying a t shirt and maybe the dvd at tomorrow's show in NYC, but then i'm done spending money. the rest of this check will be put away. in fact, i just transfered a chunk of it to my savings so that i don't accidentally spend any more than i mean to. good. done. yay. anyway, the show was fantastic and i had a really nice chat w/char afterwards (i told her how much i love cut the cord "because that song is my heart" and she said that was the nicest thing anyone had ever said to her. awww!). and laura was able to give me some painkillers which makes my shoulder happy. i had a vicodin during the show which helped immensely and just had an oxycontin about 20 minutes ago. i'm pretty much uninitiated when it comes to painkillers so i have no idea how much to take so i just went with one. here's hoping it not only kills the pain but puts me to sleep. i don't know why i'm wired. i need to get to sleep too as i have some quick errands to run tomorrow before heading off to carole & marco's in the afternoon. well, i'm off to try again. maybe cuddling charly will do the trick.