the death of my Pupup
I can't say I'm surprised...and yet in the same breath I am about to cry because i am so disappointed. If you don't already know, I have an astranged grandfather who as of recent years has been trying to reconnect with his daughter (my mom) and his two sons. he remarried after my Grandmother died and and was rejected his children to be with her family. MaryEllen is a horrible old hag who is an alcoholic fucking bitch who should have died in that car accident a few years back so i could have spit on her grave. the woman used to try to get me to call her "grandma" when i was young against my parents wishes. I hate her maniplulating family and the way she guilt tripped and conned my grandfather, but it is he who should have been strong. he's not an idiot, he should have stayed with his family instead of leaving them....
Anyways, a few years back there was this car accident where he blackout and hit a tree, put MaryEllen in a halo and him in a position of questioning his mortality. He decided to try and fix things with his children. I remember sitting outside my mom's offic listening to her agrue with him about his treatment of the family. My uncle Ken never looked back at him, his father was dead to him. but my uncle Tommy and my mom tried to get things right for years they've been trying.....well that's over, he rejected our family agian and i heard it straight from my mothers mouth "he's dead to me" ::::pause:::: so be it. I can't imagine being my mom or my uncle right now...denying that your father* is alive, that you even have one. I mean, they have every right to be angry and to turn away, but it must be so hard. I think in my head i had always hoped that I would one day go and see him and hug him and he would remember who i was and things would be right and i would finally have my old Pupup back who called me his "little tomata" and god...i am so angry with how long this took, how upset it makes me...now i have no grandparents and no hope of ever having one. i wonder what will happen when his body expires. will my mom go? will she say nice words about him? will she tear up the announcment if she even gets one...will anyone tell me that he has past? and what will i say? "i have no grandfather"? it seems a bit much, but it's the truth. so this is me now...mourning his passing. Puppup my mother's father is dead.
Anyways, a few years back there was this car accident where he blackout and hit a tree, put MaryEllen in a halo and him in a position of questioning his mortality. He decided to try and fix things with his children. I remember sitting outside my mom's offic listening to her agrue with him about his treatment of the family. My uncle Ken never looked back at him, his father was dead to him. but my uncle Tommy and my mom tried to get things right for years they've been trying.....well that's over, he rejected our family agian and i heard it straight from my mothers mouth "he's dead to me" ::::pause:::: so be it. I can't imagine being my mom or my uncle right now...denying that your father* is alive, that you even have one. I mean, they have every right to be angry and to turn away, but it must be so hard. I think in my head i had always hoped that I would one day go and see him and hug him and he would remember who i was and things would be right and i would finally have my old Pupup back who called me his "little tomata" and god...i am so angry with how long this took, how upset it makes me...now i have no grandparents and no hope of ever having one. i wonder what will happen when his body expires. will my mom go? will she say nice words about him? will she tear up the announcment if she even gets one...will anyone tell me that he has past? and what will i say? "i have no grandfather"? it seems a bit much, but it's the truth. so this is me now...mourning his passing. Puppup my mother's father is dead.