First friday of June
Today was quite a bad day. But i am not very sad or down.
Firstly, due to my poor time management, I was late in meeting my friends again, Was supposed to meet at 10, thn i ended up reaching sch at 1035. Felt so bad to make them wait when i was the one who texted them to meet at 10. Plus they were waiting for me to pass them the paper to print. Zzz. So in the end we were late for lecture partly because of me, and also partly because of the stupid printer that kept giving us problem. Of course, if I was there earlier to print earlier, we might not have been late.
Secondly, I forgot to bring my medication for flu out so I was sniffing and sneezing the whole day. It sure didn't feel good I swear. Felt the most horrible everytime after I sneezed. Throat hurts like a bitch. And the sniffing uh, cannot maintain. So damn annoying. & I forgot to bring my bottle out. Would have died of thirst with a dry throat but thank god steph made honey water for sherri and I! <3
I also didn't have time to do my makeup this morn cos i was rushing out of the house so I brought my makeup out, but had no time to stop to do so I looked cui for the whole day. Really wished I had bigger eyes with double eyelid. And also a better complexion. Always feel so inferior with my complexion and face. Thus I am v sensitive with comments (whether jokingly or not) targeting my face. ): Plus my hair isn't exactly at its prime moments. Cutting bangs was a wrong decision. I don't suit bangs. I want my side fringe and long thick hair back.
Aiya, talk about flaws and everyone will have 1001 things to complain about themselves that make themselves feel inferior to others. Who doesn't? If you don't, either you are really perfect or you have a really high self-esteem that makes you feel so damn good about yourself. Confidence and over-confidence are two different things. One can have confidence even if they have flaws that they are unhappy about just that they choose not to brood over it and hide their insecurities behind their mask. Once that mask is broken through, the flaws and insecurities will still be there. Over-confidence is when you think you do not have any flaws at all and you reign supreme above everyone else.
Back to topic.
I am so guilty even until now for what happened during lunch. Shawn and jerms came over to ask darren and I to help them buy food and they will help us buy drinks. Eventually we agreed. So we carried on talking. Later, sherri and zq they all came to join us so we helped them to order. After collecting our food and all and back at the table, we realised we forgot to buy Shawn's chicken chop. He had to go back to queue all over again. Ahhh to think he so nice help us buy drinks and all then we forgot about his order. ): Like everyone got their food except for him, and especially when he was the one buying the drinks, that feeling must have sucked. Me and my forgetful memory. Really hate my memory. Steph and I went back without starting on our meal, thinking we should queue together with him since it's our (not steph but me and darren's) fault for forgetting his order but we found him at the Malay stall already ordering, so all we could do was to mumble one 'Sorry' to him. :/ We offered to treat his next meal but he declined. Sighhhhh. Sorry! ):
I am too muddleheaded today for my own good. I left my knitted jacket with weiling, thinking that I left it on the bus so i was sad for the entire night until I reached home and found out from Twitter that it was with her. Felt like a fool, but glad to know that I didn't lose it! ^^ I also left the lozenges buddy gave me with Teruna...zzz. Perhaps i need more sleep to be less blur?
Nevertheless, had a great dinner with the classmates! Am amazed we can bond so well after only a few weeks! ^^
I still need to complete my 8pgs of assignment by end of this week, complete the mood board & fabric page for my cds, practice for ssm prof test 1 & revise accounting, MST next wed! So much to do! ):
Feeling really sleepy now. Got to quickly finish up whatever i'm doing now & go to bed! Celebrating buddy's birthday tmr! ^^
Firstly, due to my poor time management, I was late in meeting my friends again, Was supposed to meet at 10, thn i ended up reaching sch at 1035. Felt so bad to make them wait when i was the one who texted them to meet at 10. Plus they were waiting for me to pass them the paper to print. Zzz. So in the end we were late for lecture partly because of me, and also partly because of the stupid printer that kept giving us problem. Of course, if I was there earlier to print earlier, we might not have been late.
Secondly, I forgot to bring my medication for flu out so I was sniffing and sneezing the whole day. It sure didn't feel good I swear. Felt the most horrible everytime after I sneezed. Throat hurts like a bitch. And the sniffing uh, cannot maintain. So damn annoying. & I forgot to bring my bottle out. Would have died of thirst with a dry throat but thank god steph made honey water for sherri and I! <3
I also didn't have time to do my makeup this morn cos i was rushing out of the house so I brought my makeup out, but had no time to stop to do so I looked cui for the whole day. Really wished I had bigger eyes with double eyelid. And also a better complexion. Always feel so inferior with my complexion and face. Thus I am v sensitive with comments (whether jokingly or not) targeting my face. ): Plus my hair isn't exactly at its prime moments. Cutting bangs was a wrong decision. I don't suit bangs. I want my side fringe and long thick hair back.
Aiya, talk about flaws and everyone will have 1001 things to complain about themselves that make themselves feel inferior to others. Who doesn't? If you don't, either you are really perfect or you have a really high self-esteem that makes you feel so damn good about yourself. Confidence and over-confidence are two different things. One can have confidence even if they have flaws that they are unhappy about just that they choose not to brood over it and hide their insecurities behind their mask. Once that mask is broken through, the flaws and insecurities will still be there. Over-confidence is when you think you do not have any flaws at all and you reign supreme above everyone else.
Back to topic.
I am so guilty even until now for what happened during lunch. Shawn and jerms came over to ask darren and I to help them buy food and they will help us buy drinks. Eventually we agreed. So we carried on talking. Later, sherri and zq they all came to join us so we helped them to order. After collecting our food and all and back at the table, we realised we forgot to buy Shawn's chicken chop. He had to go back to queue all over again. Ahhh to think he so nice help us buy drinks and all then we forgot about his order. ): Like everyone got their food except for him, and especially when he was the one buying the drinks, that feeling must have sucked. Me and my forgetful memory. Really hate my memory. Steph and I went back without starting on our meal, thinking we should queue together with him since it's our (not steph but me and darren's) fault for forgetting his order but we found him at the Malay stall already ordering, so all we could do was to mumble one 'Sorry' to him. :/ We offered to treat his next meal but he declined. Sighhhhh. Sorry! ):
I am too muddleheaded today for my own good. I left my knitted jacket with weiling, thinking that I left it on the bus so i was sad for the entire night until I reached home and found out from Twitter that it was with her. Felt like a fool, but glad to know that I didn't lose it! ^^ I also left the lozenges buddy gave me with Teruna...zzz. Perhaps i need more sleep to be less blur?
Nevertheless, had a great dinner with the classmates! Am amazed we can bond so well after only a few weeks! ^^
I still need to complete my 8pgs of assignment by end of this week, complete the mood board & fabric page for my cds, practice for ssm prof test 1 & revise accounting, MST next wed! So much to do! ):
Feeling really sleepy now. Got to quickly finish up whatever i'm doing now & go to bed! Celebrating buddy's birthday tmr! ^^