Miss and reminisce of something close to exctasy

[swinglifeaway_x]

alright well , work was fine. i was with mindy. and she kicks ass. so its all good there. annd i got all ready rite after work to see drew. annd have dinner with him and all that good stuff. it took me over an hour to get ready cuz i wanted to look nice just for him annd idk... driving to nicks grad party he flips out for no reason.. and told me "i fuckign hate you" ... and, he got out and slammed my door... and i cryed. plan and simple. i eventually got home to where i went out with friends.

- jess and martin to canal fest

-jess martin jarret eric and shawn

-kicked around spongebob ball around the lot

now im home and every song i hear is like a reminder and i cant stand it.

but... what he did to me today. no way... i will not let this one go with out an apologie. i did 406746 things for him today. and even set up my house cuz he was suppose to stay over and i drove him places and helped him with his arm sock thing and just... idk... hours devoted to him and i recived this. i drve out there to take him to nicks??? (kinda - HE GOT US LOST) well, i knew where i was. idk...

bad day. its just i cant do this tonite. my mind is FULLLLLL and sleep will not come easy... shittttttttttt.

ughhhhh idk.

i cant even vent rite now...

sry peoples... *ashley