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ohhhkay...
sooo, idk. ive been toooo Darien Lake...
that was okay i supose. i didnt feel good alot of the time. but i dont kno sometimes i just dont feel like doing much, or talking much. and i have MAJOR mood swings and whatnot. i mean, i can LASH OUT one second and then the next second im all giddy. I found out i have uncontroable mood changes in seconds like i described beacause of one of the growths. the one on my pituitary gland. i can uncontrolably feel Angry, upset, anything. i mean any emotion could not even be the acuall me. which makes me think to much cuz now i wanna kno whats the real me. orr ya kno... idk... whats my real controlabilty of my moods? i mean, this impares my decisions and everything. the way i feel about people and lalalalalala you name it. this growth also effects my period. and also ability to have children. im not shore for that one yet, i just kno that it can do that. and now. i wonder how long i have had these, or maybe this is just new. mayeb this is why all my other shit happens... im not 100 positive about the growth behind my eyes. i kno it can impare seeing. annnd i mean, i am blind in my left eye but Dr. Gulati said it was cuz my nerves in my eye was inflamed. and this happens rarely and noone knows what causes it. no ones acually aloud to come out and tell me anything so... ill have to wait for the FULL story this week. - what i use to do was always have my headphones on with my cd player but my cd player went to shit. ever wonder why i have literally 947640733857.4 cds...?? its cuz id just chill and listen. So, since i didnt have one no more, and cds are anoying to carry aound.... like 947640733857.4 at a time... i got my self a kick ass ipod. oohhh mann, i really like it. and it was worth the $$ i didnt have cuz putting them on and just listening while i lay there or sit or whatever i do.. just takes me away, makes me feels good and keeps me all real... idk... that prolly soudned gay but... music is music and i kno most oyu kno what i mean in the long run , cuz i kno u all love your tunes... hehe.
Fire tonite??? meh, maybe. i kno jess me and jarret are definets. then, maybe rob. if he gets droped off from Prom. thats where he is rite now. oh man, he got a hair cut... im nervou to see it, but im shore hes lovley no matter WHAT.
and erics away message says hes gunna be out... so :( who knows. and i gotta call jodie and then shawn.
jodie: sry i didnt come to your party. jess told me about it and said u invited me. i was at work. i apologize. hope you had fun! YEAH UR 18!!
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I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING FUN ROB!!!!!!!!!
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^ he HATES that... he doesnt wanna have fuuuuun... oh, he will. ))!jinx!((
* !!!HACHA!!! *
nothing ot much more to say.. watching baby Maggie rite now... and she whines whines whines.... UGH. oh well... im not one to complain ... "?"
im out.
like my visuality in my left eye ... awww :( *tear*
i am SUCH a DOOORRKK!!!!!
Later Peoples
2+2 = 22 < ~~~ do u guys remeber that ? haha ITS NOT 4 STUPID!! ITS 22!!
oh and... why was 6 afraid of 7... ??
cuz 7 "8" 9... HAHA FOR DINNER!! HAHA
Im gunna shot myself int he rite eye now... later.
sooo, idk. ive been toooo Darien Lake...
that was okay i supose. i didnt feel good alot of the time. but i dont kno sometimes i just dont feel like doing much, or talking much. and i have MAJOR mood swings and whatnot. i mean, i can LASH OUT one second and then the next second im all giddy. I found out i have uncontroable mood changes in seconds like i described beacause of one of the growths. the one on my pituitary gland. i can uncontrolably feel Angry, upset, anything. i mean any emotion could not even be the acuall me. which makes me think to much cuz now i wanna kno whats the real me. orr ya kno... idk... whats my real controlabilty of my moods? i mean, this impares my decisions and everything. the way i feel about people and lalalalalala you name it. this growth also effects my period. and also ability to have children. im not shore for that one yet, i just kno that it can do that. and now. i wonder how long i have had these, or maybe this is just new. mayeb this is why all my other shit happens... im not 100 positive about the growth behind my eyes. i kno it can impare seeing. annnd i mean, i am blind in my left eye but Dr. Gulati said it was cuz my nerves in my eye was inflamed. and this happens rarely and noone knows what causes it. no ones acually aloud to come out and tell me anything so... ill have to wait for the FULL story this week. - what i use to do was always have my headphones on with my cd player but my cd player went to shit. ever wonder why i have literally 947640733857.4 cds...?? its cuz id just chill and listen. So, since i didnt have one no more, and cds are anoying to carry aound.... like 947640733857.4 at a time... i got my self a kick ass ipod. oohhh mann, i really like it. and it was worth the $$ i didnt have cuz putting them on and just listening while i lay there or sit or whatever i do.. just takes me away, makes me feels good and keeps me all real... idk... that prolly soudned gay but... music is music and i kno most oyu kno what i mean in the long run , cuz i kno u all love your tunes... hehe.
Fire tonite??? meh, maybe. i kno jess me and jarret are definets. then, maybe rob. if he gets droped off from Prom. thats where he is rite now. oh man, he got a hair cut... im nervou to see it, but im shore hes lovley no matter WHAT.
and erics away message says hes gunna be out... so :( who knows. and i gotta call jodie and then shawn.
jodie: sry i didnt come to your party. jess told me about it and said u invited me. i was at work. i apologize. hope you had fun! YEAH UR 18!!
_________________________________________________
I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING FUN ROB!!!!!!!!!
_________________________________________________
^ he HATES that... he doesnt wanna have fuuuuun... oh, he will. ))!jinx!((
* !!!HACHA!!! *
nothing ot much more to say.. watching baby Maggie rite now... and she whines whines whines.... UGH. oh well... im not one to complain ... "?"
im out.
like my visuality in my left eye ... awww :( *tear*
i am SUCH a DOOORRKK!!!!!
Later Peoples
2+2 = 22 < ~~~ do u guys remeber that ? haha ITS NOT 4 STUPID!! ITS 22!!
oh and... why was 6 afraid of 7... ??
cuz 7 "8" 9... HAHA FOR DINNER!! HAHA
Im gunna shot myself int he rite eye now... later.