he took me by suprise.
i like someone.
its been a while since this has happened. i find myself thinking about him.
we have these moments where...
we were talking about records and american idiot came up and i mentioned how i had whatsername lyrics as an away message for a while. and he flipped out. then he mentioned return of saturn and it was my turn.
it just seems like everything works so well.
and it scares the hell out me. the last time i had this type of connection, where we have 7 hour conversations and think nothing of it, where we dont want to fall alseep, because we dont want to leave the other person, where we can agree and disagree and learn from eachother, the last time i had all this was with chandler. and aaron.
but theres a catch:
hes had an on/off girlfriend for a few years.
who i met months ago before i even saw him.
who hates me, although to be honest, im not so keen on her, only because she has never made an effort to say hello, even when we were in the same friend group.
who before we even met told him that he couldnt hang out with of me.
hes 22. and loves music and life.
and i really like him.
and he really likes me too.
when we've hung out, i always check with myself "if i was in her position, would i be ok with this?" nothing has happened.
look, we can be best friends, you can crash here any time, we can have these late night conversations and watch the sun come up, but techniqually, youstillhave a girlfriend. and until youfigure out whats going on there, thats all i can be.
its been a while since this has happened. i find myself thinking about him.
we have these moments where...
we were talking about records and american idiot came up and i mentioned how i had whatsername lyrics as an away message for a while. and he flipped out. then he mentioned return of saturn and it was my turn.
it just seems like everything works so well.
and it scares the hell out me. the last time i had this type of connection, where we have 7 hour conversations and think nothing of it, where we dont want to fall alseep, because we dont want to leave the other person, where we can agree and disagree and learn from eachother, the last time i had all this was with chandler. and aaron.
but theres a catch:
hes had an on/off girlfriend for a few years.
who i met months ago before i even saw him.
who hates me, although to be honest, im not so keen on her, only because she has never made an effort to say hello, even when we were in the same friend group.
who before we even met told him that he couldnt hang out with of me.
hes 22. and loves music and life.
and i really like him.
and he really likes me too.
when we've hung out, i always check with myself "if i was in her position, would i be ok with this?" nothing has happened.
look, we can be best friends, you can crash here any time, we can have these late night conversations and watch the sun come up, but techniqually, youstillhave a girlfriend. and until youfigure out whats going on there, thats all i can be.