The shitty day pileup..
There are so many clichés for this but basically, once today started sucking, it managed to suck in an impressive array of ways.
I have a cold. It is 90-something outside and my store has no a/c so it was gradually increasing from the low 80's to the mid-90's inside the store all day. This makes me lethargic, unproductive and generally grumpy. I waited all morning to hear from the roommates I really wanted to move in with, because my back-up plan had called and I figured he wanted an answer. Then, almost simultaneously, I listened to his rejection voicemail and received her rejection email. I feel infinitely more lame and uncool than usual... they each met a few other potential roommates and though I thought they liked me a lot, I didn't make the cut. Cathie went home sick, so I had double the work in the heat this afternoon. Alicia stole credit for someone else's sale, again, and now I have to sit her down about it and she always cries and it generally just sucks. I spilled acid on my hand without.realizing it right away so now I have a yellow nasty blotch on my fingernail that won't go away until it grows out. And after all the drama last night with Robin coping with the reality that I would probably be moving this very weekend, I now have to be like accctualllly no, false alarm, hope you like awkward evenings!
I have been very positive throughout this whole process so far, so I guess it's only natural that at some point I would have to feel the actual stress of it. I just can't handle meeting another group of people who seem to like me and then get the "you're great but..." email. Plus all this running around between the city and home is exhausting both physically and financially.
But okay. Now that I have taken stock of my many frustrations, I intend to shake it off and start going through my stuff tonight. Have to find my transcript, do laundry, donate or throw away the stuff I don't need, and get a general idea of what I believe belongs to me, or at least what I will want to bring along to my new place, whenever I eventually find it. Despite the heat and my general flustered feeling (and the unpleasant prospect of staying in this emotionally volatile situation for another month), this could be good. I will have more time to organize myself, mentally prepare, etc.
Okay. I think I've shaken it off. Time to attack the closet.
Posted via LjBeetle
I have a cold. It is 90-something outside and my store has no a/c so it was gradually increasing from the low 80's to the mid-90's inside the store all day. This makes me lethargic, unproductive and generally grumpy. I waited all morning to hear from the roommates I really wanted to move in with, because my back-up plan had called and I figured he wanted an answer. Then, almost simultaneously, I listened to his rejection voicemail and received her rejection email. I feel infinitely more lame and uncool than usual... they each met a few other potential roommates and though I thought they liked me a lot, I didn't make the cut. Cathie went home sick, so I had double the work in the heat this afternoon. Alicia stole credit for someone else's sale, again, and now I have to sit her down about it and she always cries and it generally just sucks. I spilled acid on my hand without.realizing it right away so now I have a yellow nasty blotch on my fingernail that won't go away until it grows out. And after all the drama last night with Robin coping with the reality that I would probably be moving this very weekend, I now have to be like accctualllly no, false alarm, hope you like awkward evenings!
I have been very positive throughout this whole process so far, so I guess it's only natural that at some point I would have to feel the actual stress of it. I just can't handle meeting another group of people who seem to like me and then get the "you're great but..." email. Plus all this running around between the city and home is exhausting both physically and financially.
But okay. Now that I have taken stock of my many frustrations, I intend to shake it off and start going through my stuff tonight. Have to find my transcript, do laundry, donate or throw away the stuff I don't need, and get a general idea of what I believe belongs to me, or at least what I will want to bring along to my new place, whenever I eventually find it. Despite the heat and my general flustered feeling (and the unpleasant prospect of staying in this emotionally volatile situation for another month), this could be good. I will have more time to organize myself, mentally prepare, etc.
Okay. I think I've shaken it off. Time to attack the closet.
Posted via LjBeetle