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I think I'm not letting myself have the opportunity to find a quality person to be with. I just jump on any guy I meet, even if he's interesting and potentially wonderful and then, of course, it's either fantastically awkward or we end up never seeing each other again. Which is no good. Although I don't know what they think about things...ahhhhhhhh why am I doing this? And I was afraid that I was leading Trevor on because I feel like he was a little too forward in his cuddling after the first time we cuddled. Since the last football game we've been hanging out and watching a lot of movies alone together. After watching TrueBlood, making rice and watching Princess Monkonoke last night I told him I didn't want to lead him on and I don't know if he actually was thinking that I liked him or what but I think that made things stupid. And then I asked if I could sleep on his couch because I didn't want to sleep in my apartment all alone. And this morning was weird. At least I think it was...but it might not have been. Who knows.