It's cold...
...and my feet have no feeling. So this should probably be my most generic post every since I just woke up. I like posting in here again even if nobody really does read it, that means I wont be judged for what I write.
I am finding I don't sleep very well anymore, I keep having distrubing dreams. No really nightmares, but more or less saddening dreams of things that I have lost. It makes me sad to dream about them again, becuase then I wake up sad and don't really know what to do. Also I dream in color and sound, and have songs running through my dreams. I think this was the first time it has ever rained in my dream, I heard BB King singing the blues in my dream, it was very sad.
In other news, this week hasn't been to bad. I went to lunch with an old friend yesterday which was nice, and I went to the movies with her last weekend. I like doing something nice for someone again, it makes me feel important. It's christmas time, and their is no snow.
We don't live in Florida, and Al Gore won the nobel peace prize for telling us that it's getting warmer! WTF? I don't understand this world.
Not really looking forward to working tonight at all, kind of not really looking forward to the party I planned to have tomorrow eaither. I have a sad feeling that most of the people I really want to be here won't show up. It's just the way things happen to me for some reason. I don't understand it...
....I don't understand much of anything really.... growing up sucks, I've come to realise this. Kindergarden was the best time ever. Coloring books and leaveing school early, packed lunches, and feild trips....man those where the days.
I wish I was that young again.
I am finding I don't sleep very well anymore, I keep having distrubing dreams. No really nightmares, but more or less saddening dreams of things that I have lost. It makes me sad to dream about them again, becuase then I wake up sad and don't really know what to do. Also I dream in color and sound, and have songs running through my dreams. I think this was the first time it has ever rained in my dream, I heard BB King singing the blues in my dream, it was very sad.
In other news, this week hasn't been to bad. I went to lunch with an old friend yesterday which was nice, and I went to the movies with her last weekend. I like doing something nice for someone again, it makes me feel important. It's christmas time, and their is no snow.
We don't live in Florida, and Al Gore won the nobel peace prize for telling us that it's getting warmer! WTF? I don't understand this world.
Not really looking forward to working tonight at all, kind of not really looking forward to the party I planned to have tomorrow eaither. I have a sad feeling that most of the people I really want to be here won't show up. It's just the way things happen to me for some reason. I don't understand it...
....I don't understand much of anything really.... growing up sucks, I've come to realise this. Kindergarden was the best time ever. Coloring books and leaveing school early, packed lunches, and feild trips....man those where the days.
I wish I was that young again.