why do we become depressed?
Do we care to much? Do we try to hard to succeed at something? DO we feel to much? Do we try to push everything away so that it wont hurt us? We have a conctience( I can't spell it) and yet we still mess up and become depressed. Well load us with drugs because that makes everything better, doesn't anyone think that we just need someone to talk too, someone to be their for us, for things to just go right? I all I want for christmas is to be happy, and nothing else. I don't want/need any physical items at all, take that money you would spend on me and give it to some cause. I want to get rid of things I own and don't need. I just want to be happy, and enjoy myself. I find myself doing less and less of that everyday that I am alive......It's not a pretty site what goes on in my mind. I don't know if I should make this journal entry public or not, if I do don't yell at me for expressing how I feel, I hate when people do that. DOn't make me feel worse, I just want to be happy, and make others happy again. I hate being a depressed child/adult in limbo, when will it end. I try to talk myself through it all, I have talked myself out of many things that would have ended badly. When will it get to much for me to not be able to hold on anymore and keep telling myself to look up and that it will be alright, is that day just around the corner?
I have no clue......
I have no clue......