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i really want to update this and write something meaningful, but i can't. i just don't know where to start. i am not in the mood to do anything tonight and i don't know why. i really think its because joe isn't here and i miss him. its not until hes gone that i realize how much i miss him and how much i need him here. this fall is going to suck. i cry just thinking about it.
we spent them most amazing night together last night. first the bazaar..and i mean, you can't lose there. then we went to his house and watched some tv and then he took me home and i never wanted the car ride to end because he just held my hand and everyhting was perfect in that moment. it was weird. it was so perfect and i knew it couldn't get much better and it made me sad thinking about that, but happy at the same time. maybe i am actually bipolar or something. i am going to have to work a lot of hours this fall to keep my mind of this amazing boy whom i love with all my heart.
i don't know what else to write. im making lots of money so that makes me happy -- money is good...i think im going to save as much as i can for college. that would be good. im trying to read a lot more lately. i hit a little wall this month, but thats not going to stop me.
things are good now, except when i think of the fall. i love you so much. come home sooner..i am nothing without you.
we spent them most amazing night together last night. first the bazaar..and i mean, you can't lose there. then we went to his house and watched some tv and then he took me home and i never wanted the car ride to end because he just held my hand and everyhting was perfect in that moment. it was weird. it was so perfect and i knew it couldn't get much better and it made me sad thinking about that, but happy at the same time. maybe i am actually bipolar or something. i am going to have to work a lot of hours this fall to keep my mind of this amazing boy whom i love with all my heart.
i don't know what else to write. im making lots of money so that makes me happy -- money is good...i think im going to save as much as i can for college. that would be good. im trying to read a lot more lately. i hit a little wall this month, but thats not going to stop me.
things are good now, except when i think of the fall. i love you so much. come home sooner..i am nothing without you.