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Have you ever thought about what it would be like to just walk into the ocean?
Not to merely drown but to disapear
I used to fantasize that I would be pulled down to somewhere like atlantis when I was younger.
Just escape everything
The pressure
The need to be loved
The fact that everything I've tried to accomplish this year, aside from college has just gone so horrificly wrong
The fact that my panic attacks have gotten worse
and I'm afraid to talk to him about it
because I know it would really and truly screw things up
and then when I lie in bed and can't sleep, with the tears streaming down my face
I imagine that it's the ocean
and soon I'll be pulled under
Not to merely drown but to disapear
I used to fantasize that I would be pulled down to somewhere like atlantis when I was younger.
Just escape everything
The pressure
The need to be loved
The fact that everything I've tried to accomplish this year, aside from college has just gone so horrificly wrong
The fact that my panic attacks have gotten worse
and I'm afraid to talk to him about it
because I know it would really and truly screw things up
and then when I lie in bed and can't sleep, with the tears streaming down my face
I imagine that it's the ocean
and soon I'll be pulled under