fuck
i thought i had progressed until now. i was feeling good. i was HAPPY
then i had the startling realization that he could just be ignoring me.
and that this stupid, idiot boy, is very much the most perfect guy i could ever date. and that hurts.
i've had advantages in life, but i'd give up all of the money i made this summer, a few cinnamon rolls and a frisbee to be with this boy and tell him that i want him in my life and if he says yes then tell him how much i needed him these past couple of weeks and how he's been in my head every day and night.
then i had the startling realization that he could just be ignoring me.
and that this stupid, idiot boy, is very much the most perfect guy i could ever date. and that hurts.
i've had advantages in life, but i'd give up all of the money i made this summer, a few cinnamon rolls and a frisbee to be with this boy and tell him that i want him in my life and if he says yes then tell him how much i needed him these past couple of weeks and how he's been in my head every day and night.