sigh
right now i dont care who reads this i just wanna type
my head hurts horribly, im getting my period, im listening to titanic and im thinking about a lot of things.
jesse disappointed me yesterday by telling me something about himself. i wont give it away to the whole world because its not really fair to him, but he seems to have changed his values in a heartbeat. i loved him forever since the first day of sixth grade, but that love was based on my idealization of a person and now that i see that he is nothing like me, has values unlike me, and doesnt like me, i realized that it was time to get over it. ugh :( sigh.
today i went out to lunch with schuyler. he made me feel a lot better because i wasnt too happy this morning. i mean at first it was a teeny tiny bit awkward because i get shy then i got to be my own stephieish self, ahh,,, i cant believe that i have known u for not even three months and u are one of my closest friends...even when i think that ure doing something that i think is mean or i annoy u or ure mad at me or im mad at you watever...sigh :)
im going to cornell tomorrow. im very nervous and excited at the same time. are people gonna like me and im gonna have friends am i gonna end up meeting my husband when i go there for real am i gonna fail out am i gonna lose touch w/ my high school friends...sigh...
i have a headache once again i say that lol but hey it hurts
right now wat is hurting the most is the stupid jesse thing. why have i let it go on for so long. i really dont know. most poeple get over things like this but i dont. watever. okay, im sure n e one who is reading this has had enough of jesse malin over the past 6 years and u konw wat for now i think i had enough too. i thought that one day he would remember how much he used to love me and we would fall in love and get married. yea. rite.
everythings okay with my other friends too... i know some people have a problem with the dan stephanie relations that are occuring, but that is between me and him, not me and n e one else and i dont see why people have to get upset. if n e one should get upset it should be steve, and he doesnt give two watevers lol so
okay im glad i got that all out i feel better. well :) be happy i am happy just im distracted. happy but distracted. i also worked out my arms today. my dress is gonna look sooooo hot
my head hurts horribly, im getting my period, im listening to titanic and im thinking about a lot of things.
jesse disappointed me yesterday by telling me something about himself. i wont give it away to the whole world because its not really fair to him, but he seems to have changed his values in a heartbeat. i loved him forever since the first day of sixth grade, but that love was based on my idealization of a person and now that i see that he is nothing like me, has values unlike me, and doesnt like me, i realized that it was time to get over it. ugh :( sigh.
today i went out to lunch with schuyler. he made me feel a lot better because i wasnt too happy this morning. i mean at first it was a teeny tiny bit awkward because i get shy then i got to be my own stephieish self, ahh,,, i cant believe that i have known u for not even three months and u are one of my closest friends...even when i think that ure doing something that i think is mean or i annoy u or ure mad at me or im mad at you watever...sigh :)
im going to cornell tomorrow. im very nervous and excited at the same time. are people gonna like me and im gonna have friends am i gonna end up meeting my husband when i go there for real am i gonna fail out am i gonna lose touch w/ my high school friends...sigh...
i have a headache once again i say that lol but hey it hurts
right now wat is hurting the most is the stupid jesse thing. why have i let it go on for so long. i really dont know. most poeple get over things like this but i dont. watever. okay, im sure n e one who is reading this has had enough of jesse malin over the past 6 years and u konw wat for now i think i had enough too. i thought that one day he would remember how much he used to love me and we would fall in love and get married. yea. rite.
everythings okay with my other friends too... i know some people have a problem with the dan stephanie relations that are occuring, but that is between me and him, not me and n e one else and i dont see why people have to get upset. if n e one should get upset it should be steve, and he doesnt give two watevers lol so
okay im glad i got that all out i feel better. well :) be happy i am happy just im distracted. happy but distracted. i also worked out my arms today. my dress is gonna look sooooo hot