Gillian's thought process :)
I am still alive, just haven't updated in a really really long time! So I was having this really random thought process. I was thinking that we all live through other people. Well I do. I care about what people think so much, but I don't at the same time. If I listened to what everyone told me for instance I wouldn't be in the field that I am. All I hear is that I don't make enough money and that I should have a more steady job. I would love that but right now I am in a job I belong. If I put a smile on a person's face at work, I feel like I have had a good day. If not, I am up to the challenge, there's always tomorrow. So I was talking to a friend about the current situation with the boy that I have been talking to in Georgia. We met last summer in a club, he's an umpire for minor league baseball and he's coming back to Lowell MA which is basically a few towns over from where I live. I have been talking to him for the past 8 months and can not wait for him to come back. If something happens there, great, if not oh well, whatever move on. So I was talking a friend, about it and she was all negtive about the situation, she met him and did not think he was all that, but on the other hand, she doesn't think anyone is and is extremely opinionated. I told her that he wants to fly down because I invited him to a big party in Boston that another friend is having. She thinks that's sketchy and stalkerish and that he is ugly and that I am way to pretty for him. I was thinking about it and making myself believe that maybe it was. Then I got to thinking, it's my life not hers and I don't believe that. Why do people even ask other people their opinions? Do I need to have someone just to flaunt around to other people, no way, it's something very personal also what kind of people you are attracted to. Why do we ask people what we should wear out at night, you are the one who has to wear to it and be comfortable. Why do people worry about what friends I hang out with? I hang out with a bunch of different people. I like it this way. I have something special with each one. Why are we so worried about pleasing other people? Does that sound egotistical? It's just a thought process that I wanted to share, see what you think. Well, I have to go, so have a wonderful evening and can't wait to see you guys again!