Another year is over
Okay, so it's only the middle of December, but the next two weeks I will be locked up studying with maybe a few social breaks. Nothing interesting will happen, so I think I can look at the year I've had now. I went back and read my entry from January 1 last year. We toasted to 2009 sucking less, and mine certainly did not. Except for the summer, it was an awful year (2008 wasn't particularly bad for me, I was just trying to show compassion for my friends who had had a rough year). But let's take a look on where I wanted to be at this time. It's not really a pretty sight.
Where do I hope to be in a year?
1. Both quals passed.
Yeah, not so much. I was hoping to have passed both, but planning on passing one. I didn't pass either. Crap. Honestly, this is probably what made everything else on this list not happen, the fact that I've been studying and planning and trying to recover from feeling like a failure and also trying to move forward so I'm not a failure.
2. Saved up for the car, not necessarily purchased. (I'm definitely over 1/3 of the way there)
Saved up: check. Will get it beginning of 2011, unless I fail out of grad school and have to be a real person, then I'll get it sooner.
3. Solid plans to see the girls again (ie, tickets purchased), we were talking about maybe next winter break.
Nope. To be fair, I've been punishing myself for failing quals and not letting myself do anything fun. So I guess it's been intentional that I haven't made plans, not a matter of laziness.
4. A boy would be nice
Boys are stupid.
5. Find some sort of athletic challenge, whether it is a class at GT or getting in to rock climbing or actually making this marathon thing work. Or maybe getting back in to competitive swimming.
Shoulder=stupid and it's been not doing so well since February last year. I did do some serious training for running races over the summer and i really liked that, but I hit a road block in the training and all of a sudden the races had passed and i didn't enter any of them.
6. Move in to a new apartment and decorate it and love it (and not be too conservative with money) (and that will actually happen, but this is just a list of where I want to be next year)
Sure. I still don't have curtains though. Those are waiting until I know if I'm going to be here for more than 5 more months.
7. Have an idea of what I want to study and who I want to research with.
Ideas, but I'm torn.
8. Once I'm back to school I want to see a psychologist.
And I feel awful that I didn't. Not going (among other things) makes me feel like I don't follow through on things.
9. I would like to find an allergy routine that actually works this spring. Preferably one that is cheap.
Allergies weren't terrible, but they weren't great either.
10. I guess on that note, I would like to find an acne routine that works. I'm already working on that one, but it's a lot of trial and error.
A little better, but nothing great yet.
11. I want to find a church I like and actually get involved, not just attend.
I attend the same church every week and I feel more a part of Saturday night services, but it's not like home or even like in Cleveland. There aren't a whole lot of Lutheran churches in Atlanta, not that i require a Lutheran church, it's just what I know to look for.
So where do I want to be in a year? Maybe I shouldn't do this. I want to be in Atlanta, still studying at Tech, but it depends on how comps go. If i don't pass, I won't be here. And I don't want to get too attached to something that might not be. I don't want to plan specifics if I don't even know what state I'll be in.
Where do I hope to be in a year?
1. Both quals passed.
Yeah, not so much. I was hoping to have passed both, but planning on passing one. I didn't pass either. Crap. Honestly, this is probably what made everything else on this list not happen, the fact that I've been studying and planning and trying to recover from feeling like a failure and also trying to move forward so I'm not a failure.
2. Saved up for the car, not necessarily purchased. (I'm definitely over 1/3 of the way there)
Saved up: check. Will get it beginning of 2011, unless I fail out of grad school and have to be a real person, then I'll get it sooner.
3. Solid plans to see the girls again (ie, tickets purchased), we were talking about maybe next winter break.
Nope. To be fair, I've been punishing myself for failing quals and not letting myself do anything fun. So I guess it's been intentional that I haven't made plans, not a matter of laziness.
4. A boy would be nice
Boys are stupid.
5. Find some sort of athletic challenge, whether it is a class at GT or getting in to rock climbing or actually making this marathon thing work. Or maybe getting back in to competitive swimming.
Shoulder=stupid and it's been not doing so well since February last year. I did do some serious training for running races over the summer and i really liked that, but I hit a road block in the training and all of a sudden the races had passed and i didn't enter any of them.
6. Move in to a new apartment and decorate it and love it (and not be too conservative with money) (and that will actually happen, but this is just a list of where I want to be next year)
Sure. I still don't have curtains though. Those are waiting until I know if I'm going to be here for more than 5 more months.
7. Have an idea of what I want to study and who I want to research with.
Ideas, but I'm torn.
8. Once I'm back to school I want to see a psychologist.
And I feel awful that I didn't. Not going (among other things) makes me feel like I don't follow through on things.
9. I would like to find an allergy routine that actually works this spring. Preferably one that is cheap.
Allergies weren't terrible, but they weren't great either.
10. I guess on that note, I would like to find an acne routine that works. I'm already working on that one, but it's a lot of trial and error.
A little better, but nothing great yet.
11. I want to find a church I like and actually get involved, not just attend.
I attend the same church every week and I feel more a part of Saturday night services, but it's not like home or even like in Cleveland. There aren't a whole lot of Lutheran churches in Atlanta, not that i require a Lutheran church, it's just what I know to look for.
So where do I want to be in a year? Maybe I shouldn't do this. I want to be in Atlanta, still studying at Tech, but it depends on how comps go. If i don't pass, I won't be here. And I don't want to get too attached to something that might not be. I don't want to plan specifics if I don't even know what state I'll be in.