a lil bit of an update...
well yeah. this weekend ended up being quite interestings...
ferns party...
good time in the beginning. walked in talked to jim. everything was cool. good people, good drinks, good food good fun ya kno? it was a gorgeous day out. just awesome. like i was just chillin with friends and playing cards. like me and him didnt talk too much...like every now and then. which was a bit weird but the day was early. ya know? he would give me cute looks if our gazes happened to meet and i would give him a lil smile haha. but then i got completely wasted. and so did he. and it got darker. and the started talking to alot of other girls and stupid maureen fuckin bitch. and ignoring me and then he was smoking a cigarette. and i was like what r u kidding me so i went up to him. and was like whatt.. then that girl apparently stood there as i talked to him. then we talked more. and i talked to some other kid and dnapps started hitting on me. then i lost track of time and cant remember shit. fuck. all of a sudden renee came and it was cool. and she met him. then i apparently told him he only was talking to me to sleep with me. he got pissed off and was like i cant blieve u just said that im so fucking pissed and walked off. me being trashed..starts crying and everyone was like whats wrong and around me and i just wanted to go home. so i calmed down and was hangin out. and went up to him. and was like hey. an im like r u still mad and hes like i cant talk to u right now. i dont know what im doing i cant think straight. he was fucking shitfaced. meanwhile talkin it up with fucking maureen in the corner. hes like ill call u tomorrow. i was like ok whatever and walked away. and i dono what happened and i drove home to the beach with renee and then passed out and went to PA yesterday morning.
pa was boring. and i was still drunk in the morning. and i couldnt concentrate. and shit. i cant stop thinking about him and what happened. cuz i dono what happened. i called him when i got home a few hours ago. hopefuly he'll call soon. if not then i guess its over. its better that way tho. i mean i really deserve an explanation but he doenst know how to act with girls. and thats not what im looking for. i want a guy that knows what he wants. and he obviously doesnt. and if hes too busy to pick up the phone then im sorry you dont deserve me. if it was something really stupid ill see what he has to say and if he even remembers what happened. but i really doubt this will continue. haha peace out...ill see you at new west on march 20th! haha. cj's birthday is today so they've prob been drinkin all day. so maybe ill get a call during the week. i really thought what we had was gonna be good...oh well...
im goin into the YMCA tomorrow morning for an interview type thing. hopefully ill get a job. that would be pretty sweet. i need some hours. its gonna be a shitty job but whatever. back in the pool tomorrow too. alrite im done typing here...byes
ferns party...
good time in the beginning. walked in talked to jim. everything was cool. good people, good drinks, good food good fun ya kno? it was a gorgeous day out. just awesome. like i was just chillin with friends and playing cards. like me and him didnt talk too much...like every now and then. which was a bit weird but the day was early. ya know? he would give me cute looks if our gazes happened to meet and i would give him a lil smile haha. but then i got completely wasted. and so did he. and it got darker. and the started talking to alot of other girls and stupid maureen fuckin bitch. and ignoring me and then he was smoking a cigarette. and i was like what r u kidding me so i went up to him. and was like whatt.. then that girl apparently stood there as i talked to him. then we talked more. and i talked to some other kid and dnapps started hitting on me. then i lost track of time and cant remember shit. fuck. all of a sudden renee came and it was cool. and she met him. then i apparently told him he only was talking to me to sleep with me. he got pissed off and was like i cant blieve u just said that im so fucking pissed and walked off. me being trashed..starts crying and everyone was like whats wrong and around me and i just wanted to go home. so i calmed down and was hangin out. and went up to him. and was like hey. an im like r u still mad and hes like i cant talk to u right now. i dont know what im doing i cant think straight. he was fucking shitfaced. meanwhile talkin it up with fucking maureen in the corner. hes like ill call u tomorrow. i was like ok whatever and walked away. and i dono what happened and i drove home to the beach with renee and then passed out and went to PA yesterday morning.
pa was boring. and i was still drunk in the morning. and i couldnt concentrate. and shit. i cant stop thinking about him and what happened. cuz i dono what happened. i called him when i got home a few hours ago. hopefuly he'll call soon. if not then i guess its over. its better that way tho. i mean i really deserve an explanation but he doenst know how to act with girls. and thats not what im looking for. i want a guy that knows what he wants. and he obviously doesnt. and if hes too busy to pick up the phone then im sorry you dont deserve me. if it was something really stupid ill see what he has to say and if he even remembers what happened. but i really doubt this will continue. haha peace out...ill see you at new west on march 20th! haha. cj's birthday is today so they've prob been drinkin all day. so maybe ill get a call during the week. i really thought what we had was gonna be good...oh well...
im goin into the YMCA tomorrow morning for an interview type thing. hopefully ill get a job. that would be pretty sweet. i need some hours. its gonna be a shitty job but whatever. back in the pool tomorrow too. alrite im done typing here...byes