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I absolutely miss Benihanas, but Im glad Im away from it. It made me so depressed Id cry when I would hear about any of the busboys' parents or the chefs and their life stories. It killed me so bad inside. Its better that Im sheltered from it I think. But I am gonig to miss Gina, Taka, and Lucia soo much. And cheng, jewely, and justin. and of course everyone else. That place has made such a huge impact on my life.
Today was takas last day and im proud because we:
1. stole a whole cheesecake and almost got caught. what a thrill that was!
2. i didnt drink at all and kept my promise :)
although i didnt make it home by curfew by 10 minutes :( im mad at myself for that one after how much ive fought with my parents every night. and im unhappy that i eat everyday at 1am and it makes me really self concious about the fat on my thighs and my waist and it makes me want to puke. but ive also decided to stop being so anorexic and blind.
Im so torn apart in my heart. I have two weeks left as of today before Kenan and I are no longer together. He doesnt think were together now I guess but I do, and its gonig to shred my heart into pieces when I leave.
i hate lil bow wow but...
"i aint had nobody do me like you" and not to mention of course "if love is a labor ill slave to the end" which makes me believe that 9/22 isnt the end.
sugar were goin down swinging... loaded god complex cock it and pull it
"If I had one wish... I'd make you my whole life...trust me, i trust you"
You mean everything to me baby and Im so scared to lose you. I dont want it to end at 5 months when I know it could be so much longer.
And no matter how much I hate jesse mccartney, every one of his songs makes me cry.
Because You Live
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live
I dont think I could live without you :( And Im scared I truly wont be able to.
40 kinds of sadness.
i wish i could be happy with my last 2 weeks here and i am, cherishing every moment... but im so torn apart. i know it could be worse but i still feel so unnecessarily heartbroken.
Today was takas last day and im proud because we:
1. stole a whole cheesecake and almost got caught. what a thrill that was!
2. i didnt drink at all and kept my promise :)
although i didnt make it home by curfew by 10 minutes :( im mad at myself for that one after how much ive fought with my parents every night. and im unhappy that i eat everyday at 1am and it makes me really self concious about the fat on my thighs and my waist and it makes me want to puke. but ive also decided to stop being so anorexic and blind.
Im so torn apart in my heart. I have two weeks left as of today before Kenan and I are no longer together. He doesnt think were together now I guess but I do, and its gonig to shred my heart into pieces when I leave.
i hate lil bow wow but...
"i aint had nobody do me like you" and not to mention of course "if love is a labor ill slave to the end" which makes me believe that 9/22 isnt the end.
sugar were goin down swinging... loaded god complex cock it and pull it
"If I had one wish... I'd make you my whole life...trust me, i trust you"
You mean everything to me baby and Im so scared to lose you. I dont want it to end at 5 months when I know it could be so much longer.
And no matter how much I hate jesse mccartney, every one of his songs makes me cry.
Because You Live
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live
I dont think I could live without you :( And Im scared I truly wont be able to.
40 kinds of sadness.
i wish i could be happy with my last 2 weeks here and i am, cherishing every moment... but im so torn apart. i know it could be worse but i still feel so unnecessarily heartbroken.