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oh my god!!!! i didnt even hit near 40 dollars after 10 hours. this is a record and if i ever break it im quitting. i cant fucking stand it sometimes, and fucking mexicans who dont tip... there are two types of mexicans right now in my opinion. the first type is the rodolfo type, whom i absolutely adore because they work so hard and are so sincere. all of the chefs and busboys at benihanas are type one. then theres type two- the mexicans who come and treat me like a slave and dont even leave change for a tip, or sometimes leave a few coins, and that may be even more insulting. i feel so disrespected by so many of those customers and i want to shoot them
i snapped at taka again. third time.
first time- when he said "smile jackie!" and i gave him the worst glare ever and walked away AFAS.
second time- when i cut my finger and he made a joke about helping me, or i thought it was a joke, and i told him if he wasnt going to hep me then to fuck it.
third time- today when he tried to help me do my sidejob and i got mad, so he asked to help clean my tables and i snapped at him, and then he gently put his hand on my back and asked me to call him at my lunchbreak tomorrow and we cold hang out, and i said no way.
i feel horrible.
i drank alcohol at work, then i sat in the cold for half an hour with a fever, and then started crying, and then went home and ate brownies forever, and now i should sleep because i work all day tomorrow but i cant sleep cause im not done venting to the only thing that will listen to me bitch.
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so today- rodolfo and andres asked me if i was sad. i said yes, im sad. and later they said they wanted his contact information and everything and said, "we worry about you. every day. we worry about you because you arent happy and you should be- look at you. how can someone like you not be happy?" and i just smiled and tried not to start crying. i couldnt say anything. i have no reason to be sad, and so i just agreed. and they invited me to great america on wednesday and it was just the cutest thing.
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i went to dinner with kevin yung yesterday. it was really nice talking to him. him and michael are comng to benihanas tomorrow, so im realy happy to have visitors besids michael... and thats now dangerous too.
charley noticed that he comes a lot now and thinks he comes everyday just to see me... and i think its creating some talk in the kitchen. i dont want anything like that gonig around :(
i snapped at taka again. third time.
first time- when he said "smile jackie!" and i gave him the worst glare ever and walked away AFAS.
second time- when i cut my finger and he made a joke about helping me, or i thought it was a joke, and i told him if he wasnt going to hep me then to fuck it.
third time- today when he tried to help me do my sidejob and i got mad, so he asked to help clean my tables and i snapped at him, and then he gently put his hand on my back and asked me to call him at my lunchbreak tomorrow and we cold hang out, and i said no way.
i feel horrible.
i drank alcohol at work, then i sat in the cold for half an hour with a fever, and then started crying, and then went home and ate brownies forever, and now i should sleep because i work all day tomorrow but i cant sleep cause im not done venting to the only thing that will listen to me bitch.
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so today- rodolfo and andres asked me if i was sad. i said yes, im sad. and later they said they wanted his contact information and everything and said, "we worry about you. every day. we worry about you because you arent happy and you should be- look at you. how can someone like you not be happy?" and i just smiled and tried not to start crying. i couldnt say anything. i have no reason to be sad, and so i just agreed. and they invited me to great america on wednesday and it was just the cutest thing.
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i went to dinner with kevin yung yesterday. it was really nice talking to him. him and michael are comng to benihanas tomorrow, so im realy happy to have visitors besids michael... and thats now dangerous too.
charley noticed that he comes a lot now and thinks he comes everyday just to see me... and i think its creating some talk in the kitchen. i dont want anything like that gonig around :(