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Wow, its been a full week since I've let my mind run free and fingers run over the keys. First of all my dilema has been solved. So thats a plus I guess, it wasn't solved in quite the way I wanted, but o well the solution worked.
I had a good conversation with someone the other day, actually quite a while ago, and she mentioned to me that I only see the world in one way: the mathmatical way. I see that A + B should equal C, but when that doesn't work (as it often doesn't in life) I get very frusterated. I run my life in a mathmatical way, you want C I need A + B first, but the rest of the world just doesn't seem to see my point of view. Maybe I should step out of my mold, let C come before A and B, but in my mind that could cause a major catastrophy.
So another lame extended metaphor...I feel like I'm walking on a tight rope. Eventually I'm going to fall, really I'm not the most coordinated person in the world, but the question in when, where, and most importantly what am i going to land on. Should I just wait for the fall to happen, or should I jump now. Maybe if I walk a little farther what I land on will be different, but maybe now is the time to jump and later it'll be harder. Maybe if I take a few more steps i'll fall
I need a good 3 am conversation, but I am way too tired for it. If I think back to some of the best conversations in my life, really they all take place after 1 or 2 in the morning. I think that I hit that point of tiredness where really I lose my filter, what is really on my mind comes out. I think I need that.
I guess thats all I have to say for now... if you want an explanation of any of that I guess you could ask... and maybe i'll explain because now that I look at it theres very few people that it makes sense to, but o well writing it made me feel better.
I had a good conversation with someone the other day, actually quite a while ago, and she mentioned to me that I only see the world in one way: the mathmatical way. I see that A + B should equal C, but when that doesn't work (as it often doesn't in life) I get very frusterated. I run my life in a mathmatical way, you want C I need A + B first, but the rest of the world just doesn't seem to see my point of view. Maybe I should step out of my mold, let C come before A and B, but in my mind that could cause a major catastrophy.
So another lame extended metaphor...I feel like I'm walking on a tight rope. Eventually I'm going to fall, really I'm not the most coordinated person in the world, but the question in when, where, and most importantly what am i going to land on. Should I just wait for the fall to happen, or should I jump now. Maybe if I walk a little farther what I land on will be different, but maybe now is the time to jump and later it'll be harder. Maybe if I take a few more steps i'll fall
I need a good 3 am conversation, but I am way too tired for it. If I think back to some of the best conversations in my life, really they all take place after 1 or 2 in the morning. I think that I hit that point of tiredness where really I lose my filter, what is really on my mind comes out. I think I need that.
I guess thats all I have to say for now... if you want an explanation of any of that I guess you could ask... and maybe i'll explain because now that I look at it theres very few people that it makes sense to, but o well writing it made me feel better.