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I'm so sick of being by myself!!! Don't get me wrong, the people around me are grrrrrreat, I love them all grealy, but none of them really know me that well, I'm just the comic relief or some crap like that; I don't know, sometimes I just feel really alone, like in that Offspring song, I can be surrounded by people, wearing a smile on my face, talking up a storm, and still feel so out of place words don't even explain. sometimes I'm just tired and my head hurts so bad I just want to curle up in my own little corner and cry; but since my room is the social central of the dorm, I don't have a corner, I need to find one, and I need to find my own place quickly, my head is breaking into peices again, and the headaches are coming back in full force again, and I can't make them stop; the pounding hasn't stopped in like five days, and before that I only had about a two hour break. I'm going crazy, everyone rocks, everyones super, everything's perfect; but I don't need, or want perfect; sometimes I just need to let loose, but everytime I have a slight moment of "let-loose-dom" somebody gets offended or scared or something, I feel so b ottled up, so confined, I. . . AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok that's all I have to say about that

My head hurts :(

Time to go do something, I think, I have no idea, but now that I've been complaining I feel that I should balance out my karma some how, I need to make it up to the world so, time to go make someone else feel marvelous about themselves, or their lives, or just make them laugh, cause apparently I'm good at that, and I don't need to try to do that, yay for not needing to try!!! ;)

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