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so i had a pretty good birthday this year.
i got a bunch of clothes from white house black market. i got a ring, hat, and new shoes from rob, kids in the hall (canadian SNL from late 80's early 90's its the shit) dvd, intunes gift card. my really really rich aunt (moms sister) got me a fucking pencil pouch. suck my dick bitch. and my mom is giving me a birthday trip to new york city and were going to go see Wicked and Chourusline which ive never seen either of them and im very excited.
this birthday wasnt as good as last year. last year i didnt get that many gifts i dont think, but i had all my friends with me. i had my friends who now i dont see anymore because they are too busy with work, and school, or getting fucked up and feel like they cant hang around me because im sober. it really fucking sucks. i miss them a lot. i really do. i know i have a "new" group of friends, but nothing can compare to the old ones. but soon these friends will be old ones. does that mean that they will go away? my best friend from 4th to 9th grade, BEST FRIEND, Meredith Schuster, didnt even say happy birthday to me. not even a lame facebook comment. and it really bothered me. i know we've been out of touch for 2 years or so, but i still called her on her birthday in august. i dont like the fact of losing friends. i hate it. the only friend ive had that has lasted for a long time is randall, but shes my cousin, so of course we have to be friends. theres no way she can get rid of me. i dont know what to do and i dont like thinking about it.
rob and i's 1 year anniversary was today. i love him. and i hope i dont loose him too.