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wow. for the first time in my life im speechless. im numb. i dont know what to say, what to think or what to feel.
and the funny thing is, i had a conversation with marci today, and i havent talked to her in months and i said that i was so happy and that i was just waiting for it to come to a crash because it ALWAYS does...and what do you know?
i know its partially my fault, but then when it comes down to it, its not. i just feel like such an idiot. for once, i put my heart out there, and look what happens.
if someone would have told me 3 hours ago, that we would be where we are now...i wouldnt have believed them for a second...things were going really good...so i thought.
me and linds are listening to i wanna dance with somebody. laughing is a huge step from crying...first laughs in the last 2 hours. im glad something lightened the mood.
and the funny thing is, i had a conversation with marci today, and i havent talked to her in months and i said that i was so happy and that i was just waiting for it to come to a crash because it ALWAYS does...and what do you know?
i know its partially my fault, but then when it comes down to it, its not. i just feel like such an idiot. for once, i put my heart out there, and look what happens.
if someone would have told me 3 hours ago, that we would be where we are now...i wouldnt have believed them for a second...things were going really good...so i thought.
me and linds are listening to i wanna dance with somebody. laughing is a huge step from crying...first laughs in the last 2 hours. im glad something lightened the mood.