clear up
hey guys. just thought I'd clear things up a little bit. cause I got a few comments and I don't want people to get offended.
my last entry wasn't supposed to be directed to anyone in particular. I just wrote this entry in computers earlier and it didn't post, so let's see if I can come up with basically the same thing as earlier.
when I said something about girls being petty, I didn't mean it was anything new to me. I know girls are petty, I was just implying that I couldn't last in school with only girls. I don't have problems with anyone in particular and I just wanted to clear that up.
then about people changing and not being themselves. no one in particular, again, has changed. I just miss middle school when people were friends with each other and there wasn't quite as much drama as there is now. at least for me. I don't know how everyone else feels, but that's just how I feel. I mean, I came back here in the middle of the year and even though I was new, I wasn't too worried about what people thought of me. yeah, of course everyone wants everyone to like them and stuff, but at the same time, you're friends with who you're friends with. I came back and picked up with some friends that I knew from before and I met some of their friends, and it all just worked for me. I know it probably wasn't the same for everyone else, but still. I can't describe it too much. I just miss when everyone was friends and everyone got along. no one hangs out anymore, and instead of sitting around being upset about it, I'm just gonna let it go. that's what I meant by that all. I'm not going to complain, I'll talk to whoever wants to talk to me. it's pointless for me to try to go out of my way to stay friends with people who don't want to try back. I know I'm not really losing friends, everyone is just growing apart, but people just need to be themselves. that's when my problems start. I dunno, like I said, I can't really explain it.
I dunno. I don't know if any of that makes sense. I'll probably regret saying some of it, I mean, don't get me wrong. High school has been a blast, and I can't believe it's almost over! I just want to stay here forever, but at the same time, I'm SO ready to get out.
I think I'm doing the Saturday thing at Moore for help to prepare a portfolio and John's trying to do it with me. hopefully that will go through, because not only will it be my main way to get a portfolio, but it will be fun, learning how to do other stuff.
I'm applying to UArts in Philadelphia. I know I need to apply to other colleges, but I don't know which other ones to apply to.
on another note.
I was just reading recent entries. it makes me happy to see that people still care. Kels, we definitely need to hang out more, because I sit here and read stuff and I just miss hanging out with you more and more. you have always been there for me, and I totally miss that! and your family is great, my family loves you, and it's nice to know that there's friends there like that.
and yet another note.
variety show is ridiculus. I get the first dance, there's just one part I forget to do right away, but I know it's there and I'll be fine. but the girls only dance. I'm sooo sorry Marybeth, but I'm not a dancer. Don't freaking forget about us in the back, just because the people in the front get it doesn't mean we do. we get run into the curtains in the back of the stage and we can't learn steps that way. how am I supposed to get something when I don't have room to do the move and when I can't see you up front, especially when you only do the step one or two times before putting it all together again? I'm thinking that I might not do that dance. but that's a waste of my time when that's being practiced. I don't have homework I can do when I'm there, even if I did, it's not like I'd get to do it anyway. there's always stuff going on and I can't concentrate then. plus there's two other dances to learn after this one. don't get me wrong, I really wish I could do it, but I just don't think I'm going to be able to be coordinated enough for it.
but yeah.
saturday update. I did renew my permit for those of you who didn't know. hopefully it won't take long now.
saturday afternoon, Tommy and I rode the train to 30th Street Station and walked to Boat House Row (wouldn't recommend it if you don't have to do it.. it's such a LLOONNGG walk!! and my crazy boyfriend does it everyday!) but it was fun being there, just the two of us, walking around Philly, even when it was rainy, at one point raining pretty badly, and windy and cold. it was so nice. I wish everyone could feel this way. then we went back to his house and he did some homework, and we ordered pizza and watched The Skulls, and then we fell asleep together, and when I woke up it was time for him to take me home, which sucked. but it was so nice waking up and having him right there with me. the most amazing feeling in the world.
sunday I went with my mom and Lydia to a car show at DCCC. it wasn't bad, but it was cold. then Adam had a hockey game and when I was waiting for it to start, Tommy came walking in! I was shocked, but I had told my mom that it sounded like he was coming, just with the questions he was asking me. I dunno. and it was against Interboro, which was funny, he cheered when they scored a few times, but I told him he wasn't there to cheer for IHS, he was there for SVH lol but the game got called with almost 7 minutes left, because both IHS coaches got thrown out for arguing too much with the refs about a call they made.
yesterday I took the last of my pinhole pictures for a while. I guess I'll take some during study halls and stuff, but as a class, we're done taking them I think. next cycle we get the film to put in our camera-cameras. that's exciting too!
welp, this has been a very long entry, so I'm gonna stop here.
I love you!!!
later days.
*muah*
my last entry wasn't supposed to be directed to anyone in particular. I just wrote this entry in computers earlier and it didn't post, so let's see if I can come up with basically the same thing as earlier.
when I said something about girls being petty, I didn't mean it was anything new to me. I know girls are petty, I was just implying that I couldn't last in school with only girls. I don't have problems with anyone in particular and I just wanted to clear that up.
then about people changing and not being themselves. no one in particular, again, has changed. I just miss middle school when people were friends with each other and there wasn't quite as much drama as there is now. at least for me. I don't know how everyone else feels, but that's just how I feel. I mean, I came back here in the middle of the year and even though I was new, I wasn't too worried about what people thought of me. yeah, of course everyone wants everyone to like them and stuff, but at the same time, you're friends with who you're friends with. I came back and picked up with some friends that I knew from before and I met some of their friends, and it all just worked for me. I know it probably wasn't the same for everyone else, but still. I can't describe it too much. I just miss when everyone was friends and everyone got along. no one hangs out anymore, and instead of sitting around being upset about it, I'm just gonna let it go. that's what I meant by that all. I'm not going to complain, I'll talk to whoever wants to talk to me. it's pointless for me to try to go out of my way to stay friends with people who don't want to try back. I know I'm not really losing friends, everyone is just growing apart, but people just need to be themselves. that's when my problems start. I dunno, like I said, I can't really explain it.
I dunno. I don't know if any of that makes sense. I'll probably regret saying some of it, I mean, don't get me wrong. High school has been a blast, and I can't believe it's almost over! I just want to stay here forever, but at the same time, I'm SO ready to get out.
I think I'm doing the Saturday thing at Moore for help to prepare a portfolio and John's trying to do it with me. hopefully that will go through, because not only will it be my main way to get a portfolio, but it will be fun, learning how to do other stuff.
I'm applying to UArts in Philadelphia. I know I need to apply to other colleges, but I don't know which other ones to apply to.
on another note.
I was just reading recent entries. it makes me happy to see that people still care. Kels, we definitely need to hang out more, because I sit here and read stuff and I just miss hanging out with you more and more. you have always been there for me, and I totally miss that! and your family is great, my family loves you, and it's nice to know that there's friends there like that.
and yet another note.
variety show is ridiculus. I get the first dance, there's just one part I forget to do right away, but I know it's there and I'll be fine. but the girls only dance. I'm sooo sorry Marybeth, but I'm not a dancer. Don't freaking forget about us in the back, just because the people in the front get it doesn't mean we do. we get run into the curtains in the back of the stage and we can't learn steps that way. how am I supposed to get something when I don't have room to do the move and when I can't see you up front, especially when you only do the step one or two times before putting it all together again? I'm thinking that I might not do that dance. but that's a waste of my time when that's being practiced. I don't have homework I can do when I'm there, even if I did, it's not like I'd get to do it anyway. there's always stuff going on and I can't concentrate then. plus there's two other dances to learn after this one. don't get me wrong, I really wish I could do it, but I just don't think I'm going to be able to be coordinated enough for it.
but yeah.
saturday update. I did renew my permit for those of you who didn't know. hopefully it won't take long now.
saturday afternoon, Tommy and I rode the train to 30th Street Station and walked to Boat House Row (wouldn't recommend it if you don't have to do it.. it's such a LLOONNGG walk!! and my crazy boyfriend does it everyday!) but it was fun being there, just the two of us, walking around Philly, even when it was rainy, at one point raining pretty badly, and windy and cold. it was so nice. I wish everyone could feel this way. then we went back to his house and he did some homework, and we ordered pizza and watched The Skulls, and then we fell asleep together, and when I woke up it was time for him to take me home, which sucked. but it was so nice waking up and having him right there with me. the most amazing feeling in the world.
sunday I went with my mom and Lydia to a car show at DCCC. it wasn't bad, but it was cold. then Adam had a hockey game and when I was waiting for it to start, Tommy came walking in! I was shocked, but I had told my mom that it sounded like he was coming, just with the questions he was asking me. I dunno. and it was against Interboro, which was funny, he cheered when they scored a few times, but I told him he wasn't there to cheer for IHS, he was there for SVH lol but the game got called with almost 7 minutes left, because both IHS coaches got thrown out for arguing too much with the refs about a call they made.
yesterday I took the last of my pinhole pictures for a while. I guess I'll take some during study halls and stuff, but as a class, we're done taking them I think. next cycle we get the film to put in our camera-cameras. that's exciting too!
welp, this has been a very long entry, so I'm gonna stop here.
I love you!!!
later days.
*muah*