at this time
at this time everything feels pointless in my life, i think i should give up or maybe what i did to myself last night i wish i would have finished myself off right then and there. its amazing how life is like quicksand it just keeps dragging you down slwoly till you hit that spot and it completely sucks you in, thats the point i am currently in. i lost the only thing in my life that matters.... the only thing that keeps me alive, my guidance, my support, my crying shoulder, its gone and without it i guess youd say me breathing is pointless.. yes that thing is jessica aka my world. i love her more then anything or anybody could even imagine to love someone.... i cried my eyes out like a little baby last night, and then i stabbed my self in my side for her, i needed to pay for what i did to her and i deserved it but at this point i wish it owulda have killed me. then she saidf sorry from the phone and its not her fault, what i did was disrepectful and ocmpletely wrong and if she did it i would be pissed to but you see i did it so kelsey and her friends would leave me alone i mean id block them and another one would im me. how does that function? but im only blaming myself and jessica if you read this baby im sorry i love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much oyu dont even know i couldnt even pick my head up today i am so ashmed and i know oyu think i dont care about you and that i never did but i did and i still do and i want you to know that obviously i would do anything for you love jimmy