sigh i lost her maybe forever
well, here i am, crying again, what a baby i know, me and jessica just fought, it was mostly my fault caus eim so jealous and over reacted and its going to stop now, i cannot lose her, i love her so much i mean she makes me happier then i have ever been you know, i may not show it as much as i should but she does, she thinks we need a break i dont think so i cant let her go for one day let alone one secodn its so hard i just cant take it im breaking down you know, but its not excuse for what i did, i have no excuses im just a huge moron stupid ass, and i know it, i shouldnt have threatened to talk to kelsey which i did block her liek she asked, i didnt know she blocked alex it just exploded into more then it needed to and it sucks cause my jealousy is getting better i know it is cause idc about all these sean guys i really dont care about mike i know hes her friend it just like spurt of the moment it comes out and its not supposed to cause i was upset, i honestly dont care about mike i know hes just her friend, and i want her to goto her prom and have fun just cause i dotn want to go to mine doesnt mean she cant go to hers, its a horrible feeling to know you lost the only on that loves you in the world. love jimmy p.s i love you jessica (to the moon the stars and back again-