i GuEsS iT sHoWs...
it's hard to see the pain behind the mask...
i hate the person that i have become. in all honesty, i really do. i take nothing seriously, i have a great lack of motivation, i could care less about school/how i do in school, basketball isnt the same and never will be, i always have to ACT like everything is okay... reality is, nothing is okay. nothing has been okay for quite sometime. its not that i dont have fun anymore, i have great friends and they keep me happy. thats not what im getting at though. i don't really know how to explain it, but im not how i used to be and i hate it. i hate how im never serious about things. i always, always have a smart ass remark for a situation and it never goes over well. i don't often think before i speak either, i usually just say what comes to me without considering anyones thoughts and/or feeling towards what i'm about to say or do. i hate that i feel like i've lost you. i know that you are going through alot right now and im sorry, but it feels like you don't even care about me anymore. i feel like a complete idiot for saying this, but i need to... i miss you alot and i need you. :[ thats all i feel like saying. if you read this, thanks. i guess. i dont want your sympathy either. i wrote it to say it and thats all. <3 Kara.
i hate the person that i have become. in all honesty, i really do. i take nothing seriously, i have a great lack of motivation, i could care less about school/how i do in school, basketball isnt the same and never will be, i always have to ACT like everything is okay... reality is, nothing is okay. nothing has been okay for quite sometime. its not that i dont have fun anymore, i have great friends and they keep me happy. thats not what im getting at though. i don't really know how to explain it, but im not how i used to be and i hate it. i hate how im never serious about things. i always, always have a smart ass remark for a situation and it never goes over well. i don't often think before i speak either, i usually just say what comes to me without considering anyones thoughts and/or feeling towards what i'm about to say or do. i hate that i feel like i've lost you. i know that you are going through alot right now and im sorry, but it feels like you don't even care about me anymore. i feel like a complete idiot for saying this, but i need to... i miss you alot and i need you. :[ thats all i feel like saying. if you read this, thanks. i guess. i dont want your sympathy either. i wrote it to say it and thats all. <3 Kara.