And then life throws a curve ball.
What is about you
that always seems
to brighten my day?
Part of me is anxious.
Wants this.
The other part,
the bigger of the two,
is scared to death.
& this feeling is new to me.
This feeling of unsureness.
[yes, I made that up]
Maybe that's what scares me.
I know I don't want to break anymore hearts.
Especially your's.
& why is that??
What is it about you?
And who would have expected this as an outcome?
well, niether.of.us.
That's for sure.
I need to take a leap.
I know I do.
Because with time, everything will be just fine.
I've never needed so much time.
It's never felt so risky.
Again. why this time? why?
You make me oh-so-nervous sometimes.
& do you know how many guys hate you right now?
I can be quite the challenge.
I hope you know that.
<3
on another subject:
I have big plans.
Or maybe just high hopes.
High hopes for big plans!
Yes, that's it.
Oh gawd of planmakingandworkingout,
Please let these plans I made work out.
QUOTE:
"She says that we're all tied up
and wrapped around
in useless states of mind."