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I needed to do this so seriously you dont have to read it...
Here we go again...
the thunder and the rain. I dont know if I can handle it anymore. I try to dry my eyes but it just keeps on comming. It never stops. Oh how i wish it would stop. but I believe i might be the one causeing it. The choices i make. I dunno. I always lay there trying to figure it out but it never works. I can never find an answer. Why did I do this or why did I do that. The truth is...I just dont know anymore. Nor do I care. It just keeps comming so I tell myself to stay strong...Pain is only weakness leaving the body. I wish i could go back to the days when swimming it all off actually worked. When I could just swim lap after lap and not give a care in the world. Well those days have past...and I cannot swim. My calf muscle has weakened me. It is a challenge put in my way that I have to overcome. Im trying...seriously I am. But sometimes I get angry with myself. For pushing myself to hard that one day. Then..I make other people mad. By shutting out the ones I loved and the ones that would talk to me no matter what happened. And now look what has become of me. Once again...Im alone. I do this to myself. But then, i stay strong. Demolishing everything in my path. Breaking hearts, ruining friendships. To all the people ive hurt...i just want to say sorry. Ive had a lot of things to go through. Somethings you wouldnt even dare to dream. My past is the thing that haunts me. The thing that drives me to who I am today. But I cant go back. And everything happened. So I have to deal with it. Toughin up and just stay strong. Keep working towards my goal and reaching my dreams. If I have to do it by myself, I will. Because one thing that I have learned...is to always do your best. Always give 100%. Stay Strong. And thats what im going to do. Im going to stay strong and get through every challenge life puts in my way. So once again...im sorry.
Sorry if i ever hurt you.
Here we go again...
the thunder and the rain. I dont know if I can handle it anymore. I try to dry my eyes but it just keeps on comming. It never stops. Oh how i wish it would stop. but I believe i might be the one causeing it. The choices i make. I dunno. I always lay there trying to figure it out but it never works. I can never find an answer. Why did I do this or why did I do that. The truth is...I just dont know anymore. Nor do I care. It just keeps comming so I tell myself to stay strong...Pain is only weakness leaving the body. I wish i could go back to the days when swimming it all off actually worked. When I could just swim lap after lap and not give a care in the world. Well those days have past...and I cannot swim. My calf muscle has weakened me. It is a challenge put in my way that I have to overcome. Im trying...seriously I am. But sometimes I get angry with myself. For pushing myself to hard that one day. Then..I make other people mad. By shutting out the ones I loved and the ones that would talk to me no matter what happened. And now look what has become of me. Once again...Im alone. I do this to myself. But then, i stay strong. Demolishing everything in my path. Breaking hearts, ruining friendships. To all the people ive hurt...i just want to say sorry. Ive had a lot of things to go through. Somethings you wouldnt even dare to dream. My past is the thing that haunts me. The thing that drives me to who I am today. But I cant go back. And everything happened. So I have to deal with it. Toughin up and just stay strong. Keep working towards my goal and reaching my dreams. If I have to do it by myself, I will. Because one thing that I have learned...is to always do your best. Always give 100%. Stay Strong. And thats what im going to do. Im going to stay strong and get through every challenge life puts in my way. So once again...im sorry.
Sorry if i ever hurt you.