jester
iv given up..there we go..
after weeks of being exhausted iv admitted i cant cope
its not fair its all v ever wanted and i cant have it, its too expensive, too far, too much.. and iv tried so hard, cos i love it and i really want to do it more than anything, but i cant.. and it hurts..
so defeated. i have to go til end of december and then its over again.
its been so good, iv loved it and i dont want to end it but i have to, im so tired..
sighhhh
after weeks of being exhausted iv admitted i cant cope
its not fair its all v ever wanted and i cant have it, its too expensive, too far, too much.. and iv tried so hard, cos i love it and i really want to do it more than anything, but i cant.. and it hurts..
so defeated. i have to go til end of december and then its over again.
its been so good, iv loved it and i dont want to end it but i have to, im so tired..
sighhhh