thinking... and finding there isn't much to think about...
Accusations and fault finding, why can't you just accept that things happen, they happen for a reason and it doesn't have to be anyone's fault. Poker night is tonight, and the boys are coming to gamble their last dollars. I rather wish I could explain to you that perhaps it is jealousy, simply because he's been there since we've fallen apart and he's made me smile. I have been, in a sense, depending on our exchange of energy. I don't know about the feelings idea, I don't know if I can accurately judge my feelings right now. I've felt out where I stand with "us" or the lack of an "us", and I can find closure in my own head by simply accepting and understanding.