Dillemas

[sweetyvixen]

Well, as some people may know, I have had issues for quite sometime over my major and my path in life. I have had increasing feelinngs of doubt over my choice of a major. This doubt eventually turned to panic, when I decided that I was pretty sure that biology is NOT what I wanted to spend my life doing. I was having a bad day anyway last Thursday. While thinking about how I'd much rather be doing art while I was supposed to be studying for Benthic Ecology, I managed to break a bowl containing my dinner, which scattered all over the very un-clean floor therefore going hungry, and bump my head on my very low ceiling upstairs. Finally, freaking out I called Tom, who managed to relax me by helping me think of an alternative to being stuck with this career path for life. My mom will only pay for four years of college, and is not supportive of me doing anything artistic for a career. So, I was convinced - prior to talking with Tom - that there was no way for me to start over and get an undergrad degree in art, and also not waste all the courses I had already taken, seeing how I am a Jr. already in Biology with a concentration in Marine Bio. Now though, I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders, after we figured out another option. I could get a double major in Bio, and Art. This ofcourse would take more than four years of college, and I certainly cannot afford to put myself through the incredibly expensive school I currently attend, NU, even with my partial scholarship. SO, if I transfered to URI, which is much less expensive, especially with my RI residency, I could, with the benefits of scholarships and loans, possible afford to go there on my own, and come out with two bachelor's degrees, one in something I really love. I really do like going to NU, and would be sad to leave behind all the friends I've made, and it is definitely the more difficult path to transfer and double major, but I don't think I would ever forgive myself if I just took the easy way out. Nothing is definite, and I still haven't talked to my mom about it, but the way things look right now, next year I may be attending URI. As scary as that reality seems to me right now, it has made me breath easier over the past few days, and I feel happier and more at peace with myself than I have in quite sometime.
Wish me luck, because this route is not going to be an easy one...