On being a cry baby

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I am an emotional basket case. I seriously cannot stop crying. And I'm not one of those girls who enjoys an occasional good cry. I hate crying and I get embarrassed when I do it. I just wanna hit myself. But I just CANNOT stop crying. Today was just COMPLETELY frustrating. Life is so frustrating these days. It boggles my mind that functional families can exist, and that children can talk with their parents without feeling so angry and without screaming and patronizing and resentment, that familial communication is possible, that parents can be supportive. My parents think I'm crazy and I think they're crazy, and that's not the way it should be. And they feel so threatened all the time, esp. their authority. They're struggling for power and control, and it's so frustrating that we can't be treated as equals EVER. We don't talk about anything, except food or curfews or college loan shit or money. The only advice people have to give is Try talking with them, or Get away, and I hate both. I've tried talking and it doesn't work, and I'm not sure how much I want to push them away. And I feel guilty for how far I know I will in the future, but my life is too often depressing and stressful and frustrating because of them, and who needs that, y'know? My theory on generally everything in life is if people treat you like shit, cause stress and "drama," then drop them. But family is so hard to drop... What to do? What to do?

Jeez Louise, I can't stop crying. And when I get this way, I cry about ANYTHING cause I just become so overly empathetic. I'm going to go get busy with life now so I can tune out my sorrows. Goodbye