What life is to me...
So many things running through my head, so many desicsions left unsaid, so many people to me seem so dead, so many things making my heart blood run a darker red.
I dont know whats left for me to do anymore....I know I should be over y'all know who but its just hard I keep finding out more and more lies and it just keeps hurting more and more....I want to get away from here...
My friends are deminishing im now a regular at an ice cream place...very good ice cream by the way. ANyways.... I just dont know....Mikey I love you to death you will always be there in my heart forever and ever I just know by the time I get there you are going to have someone:( Cause I want to do my one or two years of college before I go to a university...but I dont know if you will wait...I dont know if you want to wait...I dont know if you want to be more than just friends with me...but I can accept that and will come either way. When I have my car, and know I can get a job over there...and have my associates degree in 2 years(I might just do one year) I am not sure, I know over there is a good journalism college and thats what I really want, I just dont know if I can move away:( It will be so hard, especially sinse desi is growing up now, shes almost one and she calls me ahhe(ah-he) for auny ashie. ANyways.....
I really dont know what i want....I dont know about life and love and all that stuff...I want it but Im done trying to have it, i will let it come to me I guess, and oh im not oging to cancun this year I am going to wait but anyways no one really but yeah ok no one will read this so...yeah....
I dont know whats left for me to do anymore....I know I should be over y'all know who but its just hard I keep finding out more and more lies and it just keeps hurting more and more....I want to get away from here...
My friends are deminishing im now a regular at an ice cream place...very good ice cream by the way. ANyways.... I just dont know....Mikey I love you to death you will always be there in my heart forever and ever I just know by the time I get there you are going to have someone:( Cause I want to do my one or two years of college before I go to a university...but I dont know if you will wait...I dont know if you want to wait...I dont know if you want to be more than just friends with me...but I can accept that and will come either way. When I have my car, and know I can get a job over there...and have my associates degree in 2 years(I might just do one year) I am not sure, I know over there is a good journalism college and thats what I really want, I just dont know if I can move away:( It will be so hard, especially sinse desi is growing up now, shes almost one and she calls me ahhe(ah-he) for auny ashie. ANyways.....
I really dont know what i want....I dont know about life and love and all that stuff...I want it but Im done trying to have it, i will let it come to me I guess, and oh im not oging to cancun this year I am going to wait but anyways no one really but yeah ok no one will read this so...yeah....