FUCK PEOPLE JUST FUCK 'EM
This is my 3rd breakdown of the day. I am seriously considering just quitting...everything, life, school, friends, everything. I serious dont think im cut out for any of this shit in the first place. God heres the 4th breakdown of the day now...so many fucking tears. I dont think im going to graduate anyways so why the hell even try?? And as for friends...I dont know..after tonight I dont think I need any. Im not saying any of my friends are bad its just...I dont need this shit. If ya dont like something about me then fucking tell me your goddamn self. And I so wish the person im talking about would read this but no...hes not going to. Well he can rott in hell for all I care. Am I ment to be alone all my life?? Cause seriously my heart isnt going to take anymore shit from people. I have a really good new friend but of course he doesnt live here so thats not going to work. Anyone I know who doesnt live here....they will forget me in a year...cause I am stopping calling and messaging all of them so they can get on with their lives. Im actually calling my really good friend right now to tell him this. I am tired of getting hurt so If I pull myself out of the world nothing cna hurt me right? This is my philosophy. I dont care if it sounds irrational but im SICK AND TIRED OF FUCKING TRUSTING EVERY GOD DAMN PERSON THAT COMES INTO MY GOD DAMN FUCKED UP STUPID ASS LIFE. Yes we all know now who im talking about. The boy who called me after 2 months of not talking to me. It hurts so much I can barely breathe. And my fucking ipod is broken and I have no job....I cant...things are so hard. I went to a funeral on friday and Im still crying about it because it makes me think about my nana who I happend to call and I couldnt talk with her and I started crying. I am not a strong person at all and I Never will be one. I cant be a smart person. I cant do the things that I want to do I cant succeed like everyone thinks I can. NO one has my back no one cares. Everytime I open my heart it gets shoved back to me so fuck the world. Fuck people, fuck school, and fuck life. No one is going to care so I dont know why I write this but...this is my goodbye to those who will see this. Im sorry I couldnt be a better friend to any of you, you were all always there for me and were good friends and im a piece of shit and a piece of shit needs to be scooped up and thrown away.