*Thinking...big time*

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Hi people...whats up nothin here its quarter to 10 ugh i hate mondays i wish it was friday or spring break or something i hate school and everything else is just going further down each day at least something has to go wrong i swear idk... lunch sucked zak spit chunks in my Mountain dew and thought that was pretty hilarious so i got up and was gonna dump it on him and then it got dumped on me so i was really pissed and yeah wasn't good... then homework well totally failed my algebra test ... we get them back tomorrow but i know i failed... oh well i dont kno the stuff so i'm so stressed out with that cuz i just dont understand it...i dont kno what to do about anything anymore...i wish our lives were dreams i mean everything is so clear in ur dream...like everything all your questions get answered and nothing is confusing or stressful cuz u kno everything you need to...and they are so peaceful and just so happy but then boom u wake up to reality crappy reality and i hate fairy tales ...their just like dreams they make it like theres always a happy ending but in reality tell me how many happy endings u really see? cuz i dont see many at all..i see broken hearts...death...dreams not coming true...loss friends i mean everything but in fairy tells the girl gets the guy the end they get married...etc...i mean life just doesnt work like that stupid reality! gosh! just got into a dream and never come out is my hope one day...who knows maybe it will happen...anyways thats about all the deep thinking i can handle tonight tomorrow's tuesday and idk how thats gonna go have no plans for anything...but today totally sucked thats all i can tell you...hopefully the week will get better as it goes on...i have a civics test on Thursday ...so that sux i think thats the only test though but i do have a spanish quiz on friday and a freshmen success quiz tomorrow over the stupid 7 habits book i mean how STUPID is that its the STUPIDEST BOOK ANYONE COULD MAKE well friday i'm going to community service and tanning *hurry* lets get skin cancer right? haha that wouldn't be cool but i've gotten burnt sooo many times it wouldn't suprise me if i did end up getting it sometime in my life...but that should be fun cuz were getting ourselves ready for florida its only 12 days away and with my fair skin i need a little color at least before i go down there otherwise i'm gonna fry like a burnt lobster haha but yeah...and then i'm going to soccer with her and then i'm stayin the night at her house and we'll probably just hang out and go in the hot tub and sweet stuff like that then saturday me and amanda are probably gonna do something my dads gonna be gone all that night cuz he's going to some pig roast thingy and me and amanda will probably go bowling and stuff idk quite yet heck its only monday...but yeah ...ehh i'm really irratated by everything right now so not in the greatest mood i guess it would be nice to talk to someone just about everything idk...but i guess its a little too late but its weird like at this time at night this is the way i get theres no action in the house like everyone else is sleeping so theres no noise so i just sit here and think and thinking isn't very good cuz it gets me depressed cuz i always seem to think about what could have happened with things and where things went wrong like was it my fault...what if? what if?...you know? i just and i think about memories good ones and bad and its sad cuz those are the only things u have left of somethings like u'll never see this person again or their dead u just gotta live life as if your gonna die tomorrow i guess i need to do that more like never get mad and stay mad at someone cuz what if they die tomorrow? you dont know what could happen...and how bad would u feel if u got mad at someone for the stupidest thing and then you'd feel awful cuz the next day they wouldn't be there for u to say sorrry and make up to ... it would be too late sorry this is soo long but i'm just laying down what i feel...its good to do sometimes especially when people reply cuz it helps...i still have some science homework, need to read a little more for freshmen success and spanish workbook pages but not 2 bad its only 10 ... well considering i dont go to bed till 11 i still have some time to do things lol...wow that was alot outta me i've just been drained the past few days...thinking about alot ALOT of crap and its good to get it all out well most of it well i guess i better get going i think this is long enough for u poor people to have to read but please leave comments i mean more then 1 even if u want to or w/e thanks love you all tons and thanks to everyone for everything...

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Linz~glad things are workin out for the best for you i'm really glad! love you hun