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Leo is mad at me. He says he's know me for some long, yet he still hasn't worked out who I am. Sometimes I think leo understands me more than anyone, and days like this I realise we realy aren't that close friends. He may be being sent to a rehab centre after new year.
James is still on my mind. New year is getting closer and I'm scared. What am I meant to do if he really does live up to him promise and doesn't see the new year through?
I'm not sure how I'm meant to go back to school, knowing that I'll never get to see him again. I'd seriously don't know how I'd cope loosing him. He's the first and last thing on my mind, always.
I just binged on some almonds. I let myself down. I was doing so well. I always do so well when I just let myself be consumed in exercise and studying. When I let in everything else aswell, I crack.
I think I'm feeling a bit emotionally drained at the moment, I just really want my friends to happy again, I'm always happier when the people who i love are happy
James is still on my mind. New year is getting closer and I'm scared. What am I meant to do if he really does live up to him promise and doesn't see the new year through?
I'm not sure how I'm meant to go back to school, knowing that I'll never get to see him again. I'd seriously don't know how I'd cope loosing him. He's the first and last thing on my mind, always.
I just binged on some almonds. I let myself down. I was doing so well. I always do so well when I just let myself be consumed in exercise and studying. When I let in everything else aswell, I crack.
I think I'm feeling a bit emotionally drained at the moment, I just really want my friends to happy again, I'm always happier when the people who i love are happy