So much to say...
Did I ever tell yall that Tina (itsrazzi) is the GREATEST! I love you tina! She changed my layout for me, well mainly the picture on my journal and some of the colors. YAY!!! it's about time! I was tired of looking at that collage of Oscar and I. (Cammie it was beautiful girl thank you!) I'm on a new chapter in my life, unfortunately without him...
Well, I'm no longer getting an apartment, I'm moving into a HOUSE with melanie, and my other best friend Jayme and her fiance. We figured it'd be ALOT cheaper to split an $800-$900 rent and bills between 4 people, then 2. So YAY! The apartments here are running for as much as a house, so might as well not settle. We are all so excited. I never thought I'd live with a guy, but it's just jason! Him and Jayme have been together for 5 years (today's their anniversary actually) and are getting married after college. YAY for them! Me and Mel feel comfortable with him though, so it's all good. Plus he has the CUTEST husky, Nova, gotta' love the doggie! Jason said he'd keep up with the yard work if he never had to do dishes. Ummm J, you have a DEAL buddy! just never stick my ass out in the HEAT, i'll seriously PASS OUT! lol...We are looking to move in June-ish, after finals.
I talked to that guy that my friend wanted me to talk to from the dating service. He seems nice, but I'm still SOO skeptical. I cried so much that night, cause honestly, even though I'm not with Oscar anymore, and know
*** finishing entry, i submitted an unfinished cause my friends came to visit me! I feel so special***
ummm where was i? Oh yea, I know I'm not with Oscar anymore, and know that things will never be again between us, but man I don't know if I'm ready to move on just yet. To start dating again? That's a HUGE step. To even imagine starting over right now? oh man.. i just can't. The guy's name is Richard, he's very successful, very stable, he has a degree in Nuclear Medicine and in school for his master's degree. He is 30 though! ahhh! Wtf?! He was very nice, we had a great conversation, but man... I'm being SUPER cautious. I told myself the next guy that comes in my life is gonna' have to cross over alot of barriers. I'm scared to get hurt, afraid to put myself out there right now. But don't want to be mean to anyone and hurt anyone else in the process. I told this to him and he said he's not in a rush for anything, but I'm not so sure about that? I haven't called him back, cause I don't want to lead him on. I'm so stuck! BLAH!
My friends came to visit me! Miles, (my first boyfriend from like my sophomore year in high school, he's my BEST guy friend now. I love him to pieces, and of course he's a hottie. We have been through SO much together, through thick and thin!) Tyrone (OMG he's so GORGEOUS *drool* Those eyes of his, breathtaking...I had the BIGGEST crush on him freshman year) and William (man, me and him go WAY back, I used to hate him when we first met in 8th grade science class, then later that year became best friends! haha funny how things work) all came over (with thier friend Xavier). I haven't seen Tyrone and Will since high school, and I haven't seen miles in about an year or so, even though we talk ALL the time, we just never hang out together. It was great seeing all of them. Even though I was so reluctant cause man I've gained a TON of weight, but that's all my fault, and hopefully next time I see them their jaws will drop! :-D (i'll make sure of it!) I took pictures, so I'll try and post them on here soon... Well this is long enough, so I'm outs...
Well, I'm no longer getting an apartment, I'm moving into a HOUSE with melanie, and my other best friend Jayme and her fiance. We figured it'd be ALOT cheaper to split an $800-$900 rent and bills between 4 people, then 2. So YAY! The apartments here are running for as much as a house, so might as well not settle. We are all so excited. I never thought I'd live with a guy, but it's just jason! Him and Jayme have been together for 5 years (today's their anniversary actually) and are getting married after college. YAY for them! Me and Mel feel comfortable with him though, so it's all good. Plus he has the CUTEST husky, Nova, gotta' love the doggie! Jason said he'd keep up with the yard work if he never had to do dishes. Ummm J, you have a DEAL buddy! just never stick my ass out in the HEAT, i'll seriously PASS OUT! lol...We are looking to move in June-ish, after finals.
I talked to that guy that my friend wanted me to talk to from the dating service. He seems nice, but I'm still SOO skeptical. I cried so much that night, cause honestly, even though I'm not with Oscar anymore, and know
*** finishing entry, i submitted an unfinished cause my friends came to visit me! I feel so special***
ummm where was i? Oh yea, I know I'm not with Oscar anymore, and know that things will never be again between us, but man I don't know if I'm ready to move on just yet. To start dating again? That's a HUGE step. To even imagine starting over right now? oh man.. i just can't. The guy's name is Richard, he's very successful, very stable, he has a degree in Nuclear Medicine and in school for his master's degree. He is 30 though! ahhh! Wtf?! He was very nice, we had a great conversation, but man... I'm being SUPER cautious. I told myself the next guy that comes in my life is gonna' have to cross over alot of barriers. I'm scared to get hurt, afraid to put myself out there right now. But don't want to be mean to anyone and hurt anyone else in the process. I told this to him and he said he's not in a rush for anything, but I'm not so sure about that? I haven't called him back, cause I don't want to lead him on. I'm so stuck! BLAH!
My friends came to visit me! Miles, (my first boyfriend from like my sophomore year in high school, he's my BEST guy friend now. I love him to pieces, and of course he's a hottie. We have been through SO much together, through thick and thin!) Tyrone (OMG he's so GORGEOUS *drool* Those eyes of his, breathtaking...I had the BIGGEST crush on him freshman year) and William (man, me and him go WAY back, I used to hate him when we first met in 8th grade science class, then later that year became best friends! haha funny how things work) all came over (with thier friend Xavier). I haven't seen Tyrone and Will since high school, and I haven't seen miles in about an year or so, even though we talk ALL the time, we just never hang out together. It was great seeing all of them. Even though I was so reluctant cause man I've gained a TON of weight, but that's all my fault, and hopefully next time I see them their jaws will drop! :-D (i'll make sure of it!) I took pictures, so I'll try and post them on here soon... Well this is long enough, so I'm outs...