Jan 31, 2009 19:29
since i last wrote in this blog, i have become the girlfriend of eric. and soon to be exgirlfriend.
i don't know how we ever even managed to hit it off. it doesn't even seem like it was ever real. within the last month, things have been up and down.
tomorrow is february first.
last night, in the midst of all my frustration, i added brett on facebook. he won't talk to me even though i sent him a message. i feel sort of dumb for adding him. i just did it because at one time, he was everything i thought about. and i just thought things would just spring back to the way they were when we saw each other everyday. i was foolish.
i also spent the entire night talking to mario. we talked til two in the morning. which is early for both of us. we talked for four hours about everything . i miss him so much. eric makes him look like a total sweetheart. i miss mario and all the funny things we did together. not that we did much. but i loved our trip to the city. i couldn't have thought of a better person to go to the city with. the whole train ride there and back was terrific and so much fun. he makes me laugh every single time i'm with him and it's because he's funny, not an asshole. i had such a huge crush on him. i think pretty much anything we did together would have been fun. he does a lot of things and knows so many people and people love him. he made me so happy . and he never said a single bad thing about me ever. eric says at least five bad things about me every single time i'm with him.
i just lost all the need to update. this is boring the shizzle out of me. i'm going on myspace ;)