no freaking way.
hey! i have officially broken my once a month streak.
i'm using you, sorry.
i have some boys on my mind and you know i only use you for boys.
no code names.
david: alright. this boy is too much. i haven't talked to him since before i left for england. and i feel bad what i did, but i need to get over it. and i hope he already did. i always manage to hurt a boy every year. i wonder if i really hurt him or if he was just fucking with me? i don't even know. i couldn't tellllllll. it was after not seeing him for awhile and not answering his calls and he just started texting me about how much i hurt him. and it freaked me out. so i didn't tell him i was leaving and i didn't have any service in england for ten days. it was perfect timing. because if he texted me while i was at home, i would ALWAYS text him back and i hated myself for it. but there was a small part of me that didn't think he was so bad. i just needed a couple years... and so did he.
terry: terry is retry. and i really could fall in love with him. but i never ever ever ever will! what sucks is, i see him EVERYDAY at track. he's gorgeous. x19485 . he's seriously the most perfect looking guy. and when he smiles i want to just screaaaamm. no one really has any idea how freaking pretty he is. i'd describe him, but that'd just make me like him even more. but let me say he has those adorable summer freckles that always reappear double in number every year. and his eyes are ..ughh i have to stop. but you get the idea? i'm crushing...biiiiiiiig time.
billy: billy at college, not billy braun haha. this new boy at school.. he was in my group at orientation. and i thought he was a pretty cute guy then. and now i really am intrigued. he's got a lip piercing which i usually think looks sad, but his looks like it's supposed to. and he looks like he's been around. and of course, that means i want to get to know him too. i'm really the dumbest person on earth. sorry if putting myself down annoys you, i'm not really unconfident in any way whatsoever. i'm pretty sure i'm cooler than %99 of everyone. i just have a habit of saying i suck ahah. but anywhooo, billy is hot. he wears black and red . i vaguely remember that that's my FAVORITE color combination. ever. i'd live in black and red if i didn't have an infatuation with orange. or blue or green or purple or pink. ew.
brett: this is the most important one. of all the boys i've missed, i miss him the most and i really regret not getting to know him better. i just took for granted the fact he was around. and now that i don't get to talk to him everyday and laugh with him everyday i REALLY miss him. i don't know. i guess i just wish i could still be with him . i don't know why i didn't spend more time with him or get to know him sooner. i miss him a lot. not because he was "cute" or "hott" or anything .. [he was hah] but i miss having someone to laugh with every single day. he always made me happy. hahahah i remember him and me asking michael if he had a girlfriend. and mike said he did and she was really hott. hahahah. and brett asked mike what her name was and mike goes "her name is guh." hahahahah brett asked him what her last name was and that was "buh". hahaha<33 he asked him if he loved her. and if he cuddled with her. and after every question, he'd look at me. i guess to see if i was impressed with his boyfriend skills. he was the perfect boyfriend. to hannah. his girlfriend. and she deserved him. it was a good couple.. . hmph.
august evenings bring solem warnings to remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight.
and i was really happy to see john today. he's just good at making me feel happy lately.. aka twice. i think it was just nice because i haven't smiled in awhile.
kissing you goodnight, even if every one of you are gone on without me. i kiss your shadows.
i'm using you, sorry.
i have some boys on my mind and you know i only use you for boys.
no code names.
david: alright. this boy is too much. i haven't talked to him since before i left for england. and i feel bad what i did, but i need to get over it. and i hope he already did. i always manage to hurt a boy every year. i wonder if i really hurt him or if he was just fucking with me? i don't even know. i couldn't tellllllll. it was after not seeing him for awhile and not answering his calls and he just started texting me about how much i hurt him. and it freaked me out. so i didn't tell him i was leaving and i didn't have any service in england for ten days. it was perfect timing. because if he texted me while i was at home, i would ALWAYS text him back and i hated myself for it. but there was a small part of me that didn't think he was so bad. i just needed a couple years... and so did he.
terry: terry is retry. and i really could fall in love with him. but i never ever ever ever will! what sucks is, i see him EVERYDAY at track. he's gorgeous. x19485 . he's seriously the most perfect looking guy. and when he smiles i want to just screaaaamm. no one really has any idea how freaking pretty he is. i'd describe him, but that'd just make me like him even more. but let me say he has those adorable summer freckles that always reappear double in number every year. and his eyes are ..ughh i have to stop. but you get the idea? i'm crushing...biiiiiiiig time.
billy: billy at college, not billy braun haha. this new boy at school.. he was in my group at orientation. and i thought he was a pretty cute guy then. and now i really am intrigued. he's got a lip piercing which i usually think looks sad, but his looks like it's supposed to. and he looks like he's been around. and of course, that means i want to get to know him too. i'm really the dumbest person on earth. sorry if putting myself down annoys you, i'm not really unconfident in any way whatsoever. i'm pretty sure i'm cooler than %99 of everyone. i just have a habit of saying i suck ahah. but anywhooo, billy is hot. he wears black and red . i vaguely remember that that's my FAVORITE color combination. ever. i'd live in black and red if i didn't have an infatuation with orange. or blue or green or purple or pink. ew.
brett: this is the most important one. of all the boys i've missed, i miss him the most and i really regret not getting to know him better. i just took for granted the fact he was around. and now that i don't get to talk to him everyday and laugh with him everyday i REALLY miss him. i don't know. i guess i just wish i could still be with him . i don't know why i didn't spend more time with him or get to know him sooner. i miss him a lot. not because he was "cute" or "hott" or anything .. [he was hah] but i miss having someone to laugh with every single day. he always made me happy. hahahah i remember him and me asking michael if he had a girlfriend. and mike said he did and she was really hott. hahahah. and brett asked mike what her name was and mike goes "her name is guh." hahahahah brett asked him what her last name was and that was "buh". hahaha<33 he asked him if he loved her. and if he cuddled with her. and after every question, he'd look at me. i guess to see if i was impressed with his boyfriend skills. he was the perfect boyfriend. to hannah. his girlfriend. and she deserved him. it was a good couple.. . hmph.
august evenings bring solem warnings to remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight.
and i was really happy to see john today. he's just good at making me feel happy lately.. aka twice. i think it was just nice because i haven't smiled in awhile.
kissing you goodnight, even if every one of you are gone on without me. i kiss your shadows.