Montage drama
yesterday just sucked. i had a 15 hour ski day... working with irate parents who can't understand that their little uncoordinated shoopie-pie isn't gonna be a level 6 skier after his/her third lesson. i was also working on about 4 hrs of crappy sleep because the dogs (Danny and Tommy's dog Belle) decided to play all night and then Danny got sick and it was just oh-so-fun...
i snapped at tommy pretty bad too because he came over to goof around with my lesson that had 6 kids with the attention span of ZERO and all their parents standing there "monitoring". anyway, tommy is (according to the ski school supervisor) the best kids instructor we have at the mountain, which is amazing and i'm so proud of him-- but at the same time, it's hard to know that you'll never be as good as your boyfriend... that you probably suck big time, compared to him...and that everytime you seem to make a mistake... HE is there to see it. as a proud/vain person i can tell you that this puts alot of pressure on me. i mean, i always want to appear my best around him... hair, makeup, outfit and everything...even teaching. it was a lesson that was going in the exact opposite direction i needed it to and having him there just made me want to sit down and die of embarassment.
then of course, i walk into the ski instructor's chalet and guess who's going snowboarding with tommy... oh that's right... it's carina. tommy wanted me to go too, but all i wanted to do was cry. i didn't think my freakin' day could've gotten any worse and then BAM! she was standing right there. but maria and jared got me to put on my board and so we all went out. one chairlift with maria and my tears turned to pissed off adrenaline and holy shit.... i have never snowboarded so well in my entire freaking life. of course carina stayed up tommy's ass the whole night-- and she didn't even dare look at me, because i'm pretty sure that a couple of their chairlift conversations where tommy warning her not to come within arm's reach of me. and it's a damn good thing she didn't. i couldn't have hit her... but i definitely would've said something to her and i have every intention of it if i ever get the chance. oh and just when things couldnt get any WORSE... tommy asks me if we can give carina a ride home!!!! at first i was like, absolutely not and i'll go home with maria so you can hang out with your little girlfriend. but then maria and i talked and i decided that we should give her a ride home.... and then tommy knew i was up to something...
and he was right.
i gotta leave you with that for now....
and if she's workin' there tonight, she'd better stay FAR away from me.
i snapped at tommy pretty bad too because he came over to goof around with my lesson that had 6 kids with the attention span of ZERO and all their parents standing there "monitoring". anyway, tommy is (according to the ski school supervisor) the best kids instructor we have at the mountain, which is amazing and i'm so proud of him-- but at the same time, it's hard to know that you'll never be as good as your boyfriend... that you probably suck big time, compared to him...and that everytime you seem to make a mistake... HE is there to see it. as a proud/vain person i can tell you that this puts alot of pressure on me. i mean, i always want to appear my best around him... hair, makeup, outfit and everything...even teaching. it was a lesson that was going in the exact opposite direction i needed it to and having him there just made me want to sit down and die of embarassment.
then of course, i walk into the ski instructor's chalet and guess who's going snowboarding with tommy... oh that's right... it's carina. tommy wanted me to go too, but all i wanted to do was cry. i didn't think my freakin' day could've gotten any worse and then BAM! she was standing right there. but maria and jared got me to put on my board and so we all went out. one chairlift with maria and my tears turned to pissed off adrenaline and holy shit.... i have never snowboarded so well in my entire freaking life. of course carina stayed up tommy's ass the whole night-- and she didn't even dare look at me, because i'm pretty sure that a couple of their chairlift conversations where tommy warning her not to come within arm's reach of me. and it's a damn good thing she didn't. i couldn't have hit her... but i definitely would've said something to her and i have every intention of it if i ever get the chance. oh and just when things couldnt get any WORSE... tommy asks me if we can give carina a ride home!!!! at first i was like, absolutely not and i'll go home with maria so you can hang out with your little girlfriend. but then maria and i talked and i decided that we should give her a ride home.... and then tommy knew i was up to something...
and he was right.
i gotta leave you with that for now....
and if she's workin' there tonight, she'd better stay FAR away from me.