he grabs my wrists...
...as my fingers turn into angry fists
and i whisper "why cant you love me?"
ill change for you...
ill play the part
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well, im home from maine - and im very indecisive? about how i feel. i had fun, i was able to spend time with my brothers and my sister and my nephew... who is absolutely adorable. im hoping that once i get my film developed i can find a way to post pictures up here somewhere, just to show off ;) also while i was there i got to hang out with gunner a little - mostly listened to dave and relaxed... i wish i could re-spend my time with him because id spend it all differently... im going to miss him so much :( and also alsoooo what i did while i was there was get a tattoo... i went on monday night and got a firedancer with a broken black circle goin around her on my lower back... shes beautiful :)
but, im home, now...
back to work... and back to bein lonely...
i spent last night with my lovely ladies laura and cole... we went to dinner at applebees - mmm...
we stayed up until like four something... we made brownies and watched, sort of, thirteen going on thirty... we played some games andddd we all slept in my bed together :)
so then i woke up // kicked them out // went to work...
i love them, a lot... (two words y'all)
tonight, i have no idea whats goin on
but tomorrow - is going to be one of the best days of my life (hopefully -- if all goes well) but im living proof that plans dont always work out the way you expect them to... :(
anyway, im going to wake up early and be beautiful >> then im going to philly to see john mayer do an acoustic in-store performance // get his autograph // go tailgate in camden for a few hours // watch his concert :)
wooo hoooo :)
uumm - school starts kind of soon, and im not thrilled but i am sort offff excited to meet new people and whatever...
iii dont know what else... im confused about guys >> but thats not much new >> there are a few i know are interested in me and id be lying if i said i wasnt interested in a few of them, as well... butttt, for whatever reason i seem to always find something about somebody that turns me off and i cant get past...
ill be alone for the rest of my life because im too goddamn picky... heh
and i think thats all!? <3
and i whisper "why cant you love me?"
ill change for you...
ill play the part
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well, im home from maine - and im very indecisive? about how i feel. i had fun, i was able to spend time with my brothers and my sister and my nephew... who is absolutely adorable. im hoping that once i get my film developed i can find a way to post pictures up here somewhere, just to show off ;) also while i was there i got to hang out with gunner a little - mostly listened to dave and relaxed... i wish i could re-spend my time with him because id spend it all differently... im going to miss him so much :( and also alsoooo what i did while i was there was get a tattoo... i went on monday night and got a firedancer with a broken black circle goin around her on my lower back... shes beautiful :)
but, im home, now...
back to work... and back to bein lonely...
i spent last night with my lovely ladies laura and cole... we went to dinner at applebees - mmm...
we stayed up until like four something... we made brownies and watched, sort of, thirteen going on thirty... we played some games andddd we all slept in my bed together :)
so then i woke up // kicked them out // went to work...
i love them, a lot... (two words y'all)
tonight, i have no idea whats goin on
but tomorrow - is going to be one of the best days of my life (hopefully -- if all goes well) but im living proof that plans dont always work out the way you expect them to... :(
anyway, im going to wake up early and be beautiful >> then im going to philly to see john mayer do an acoustic in-store performance // get his autograph // go tailgate in camden for a few hours // watch his concert :)
wooo hoooo :)
uumm - school starts kind of soon, and im not thrilled but i am sort offff excited to meet new people and whatever...
iii dont know what else... im confused about guys >> but thats not much new >> there are a few i know are interested in me and id be lying if i said i wasnt interested in a few of them, as well... butttt, for whatever reason i seem to always find something about somebody that turns me off and i cant get past...
ill be alone for the rest of my life because im too goddamn picky... heh
and i think thats all!? <3