The Worst
So, I went in to work today to talk to Sharon about me coming back and Allison dropped the bomb on me telling me they don't need me and that "if/when" they pick back up and get more kids then she'll call me and let me know. I can't wait around forever, I need a job now. I can honestly see them not calling me at all even if they do pick back up. Josh hasn't got his raise yet and I'm out of money. All my hospital bills just came in. Not only that, but if I get another job somewhere else I have to clue what to do with Saria. I don't want anyone else watching her and I don't want to leave her with Josh's mother or grandmother all the time. And I really don't want to be a stay at home mom. I get so damn bored here. It just adds to my insanity. I'm so stressed out and I don't know what to do. You know, I sort of knew this would happen. Maybe this is God's way of telling me I'm better off without that job since it caused me so much trouble. I don't know.
To save on money for now, I'm going to take back the pants I'm supposed to be getting in the mail that I bought from Aéropostale. I'm going to cancel Saria's scholastic books that she gets every month. I have one more package to buy then that'll be it. Josh is also going to see how much it'll be to cancel my cell phone. Which will probably be way too much if I know them.
Every night I get irritated and I don't know why. It's always when Josh gets home. I'm not irritated with him, I guess it's just because I'm so worn out and exhausted from not getting any sleep at night then taking care of Saria during the day. It takes a toll on you. Last night she was up till 3am. Then when she finally settled down and we fell asleep, Jade started meowing at our door.
I better log, I'm getting hungry.
To save on money for now, I'm going to take back the pants I'm supposed to be getting in the mail that I bought from Aéropostale. I'm going to cancel Saria's scholastic books that she gets every month. I have one more package to buy then that'll be it. Josh is also going to see how much it'll be to cancel my cell phone. Which will probably be way too much if I know them.
Every night I get irritated and I don't know why. It's always when Josh gets home. I'm not irritated with him, I guess it's just because I'm so worn out and exhausted from not getting any sleep at night then taking care of Saria during the day. It takes a toll on you. Last night she was up till 3am. Then when she finally settled down and we fell asleep, Jade started meowing at our door.
I better log, I'm getting hungry.